Up And Very Down.
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Please let this be really 148.0 lbs and not just that low because of dehydration.
I've been more sensible since my last low points in my recent posts. I've decided to cut out meat that isn't fish or shellfish in a bid to reduce the amount of fat in my diet, or at least reduce the amount of non-useful fat - I'm totally onboard with fish oils being good for your health.
Less food has been consumed sometimes, but generally I've been going to yoga and started going for walks sometimes now the weather is a bit better.
Today I had a jacket potato with a small amount of cheese, 1/2 a tin of baked beans and half a tin of tuna for breakfast/lunch. Later on I had a cereal bar, a slice of meringue with lemon, and 2 home-made dropcakes filled with raisins sultanas and apricot with a glass of milk.
That's almost certainly over 1,000 calories, but I found that when I dropped my calories right down my metabolism compensated way too well and I didn't really lose. This way seems to work better. I still go to bed with my stomach a bit grumbly and feeling hungry, and I'm keeping my weight down, and I hope that fish, nuts, seeds and more fruit will help me be healthier.
I think my goal right now is to get as close to 140 lbs as I can. Unfortunately I think I guess about right for my goal weight of 150 lbs, my body is definitely fighting a bit at going under that. Which is ridiculous really, I mean I'm only 5'7" - 5'8", 150lbs is perfectly average, it's not like I'm really skinny now or anything.
On the down side my very long term boyfriend is having a mid-20s crisis and is not sure about us anymore, which is so depressing I feel like if he goes I'll just walk off into the night and never come back. Urgh.
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Please let this be really 148.0 lbs and not just that low because of dehydration.
I've been more sensible since my last low points in my recent posts. I've decided to cut out meat that isn't fish or shellfish in a bid to reduce the amount of fat in my diet, or at least reduce the amount of non-useful fat - I'm totally onboard with fish oils being good for your health.
Less food has been consumed sometimes, but generally I've been going to yoga and started going for walks sometimes now the weather is a bit better.
Today I had a jacket potato with a small amount of cheese, 1/2 a tin of baked beans and half a tin of tuna for breakfast/lunch. Later on I had a cereal bar, a slice of meringue with lemon, and 2 home-made dropcakes filled with raisins sultanas and apricot with a glass of milk.
That's almost certainly over 1,000 calories, but I found that when I dropped my calories right down my metabolism compensated way too well and I didn't really lose. This way seems to work better. I still go to bed with my stomach a bit grumbly and feeling hungry, and I'm keeping my weight down, and I hope that fish, nuts, seeds and more fruit will help me be healthier.
I think my goal right now is to get as close to 140 lbs as I can. Unfortunately I think I guess about right for my goal weight of 150 lbs, my body is definitely fighting a bit at going under that. Which is ridiculous really, I mean I'm only 5'7" - 5'8", 150lbs is perfectly average, it's not like I'm really skinny now or anything.
On the down side my very long term boyfriend is having a mid-20s crisis and is not sure about us anymore, which is so depressing I feel like if he goes I'll just walk off into the night and never come back. Urgh.