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Ack. New Year. Can't believe the last year has passed so quickly. I feel like I have gotten nowhere in the last year. Bah humbug. I just started to go to a day centre for mental health called Victoria House. It's real hard with my agoraphobia as I have to drive for nearly an hour to get there (the joys of living in the country!!) but I really think it will help me get better and expand my boundries as the psychs say!! So I intend to go twice a week from now on.
I'm still fat. Boo. But I'm determined this year to get down to 120 lb. 142 is just FAT!! It's funny though.. I am so much better than when I was anorexic. I cant believe I got down to 87 lbs, I cant believe how terrible I felt. I really want to get to and stick at 120 lb this time.
Well, today I get to meet a new psychiatrist in town. aaargh, another hour drive! I hate meeting new psychs as they always ask way too many questions. Just give me my drugs goddam it!!! :)
I'm still fat. Boo. But I'm determined this year to get down to 120 lb. 142 is just FAT!! It's funny though.. I am so much better than when I was anorexic. I cant believe I got down to 87 lbs, I cant believe how terrible I felt. I really want to get to and stick at 120 lb this time.
Well, today I get to meet a new psychiatrist in town. aaargh, another hour drive! I hate meeting new psychs as they always ask way too many questions. Just give me my drugs goddam it!!! :)