Remember...
I really wish i remember what it's like to be a good friend. I don't know when and i don't know how but i lost that ability somewhere along the way. Some people might not think so but if i was still a good friend I would find a way to see the people I can care and think about almost everyday but i just can't get myself to do it. I've tried and I hate myself for losing that part of myself. I used to be able to just pick up a phone and call the people I missed and wanted to talk to but now I'm just so plagued with doubts about weather or not they want to talk to me. If they don't pick up is it just because they aren't near their phone, are busy or really just don't want to talk to me. I hate being so afraid. I don't know when that happened but it did and I don't know how to make the fear go away. If anyone reads this and you are a person i used to talk to/call a lot I'm sorry but this is probably the reason i haven't talked to you in god knows how long.