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I am not a religious person and have a certain wariness about me when it comes to organized religion. But I feel like I'm coming to some fairly significant realizations in my life and it's time I stopped trying to hold everything inside like some kind of strange secret.
I need help being a better human. I try really hard to make good decisions and then something comes along and knocks me over. When the dust finally settles and I look around, I feel like a fool for making the decisions I did, for doing the things that I did. I can't just say that I'm powerless and need to "give it up to god" or whatever, because I'm still a person inside of all of that, making decisions.
So, I'm going to stop trying so hard to pretend like everything is perfect and fine. Everything is not perfect and fine. I've done a good job of messing things up and making mistakes. I hurt people and I acted selfishly for a good long time now.
I'm going to work on forgiving me. I'm going to work on being a better human. Not perfect. Just better.
I need help being a better human. I try really hard to make good decisions and then something comes along and knocks me over. When the dust finally settles and I look around, I feel like a fool for making the decisions I did, for doing the things that I did. I can't just say that I'm powerless and need to "give it up to god" or whatever, because I'm still a person inside of all of that, making decisions.
So, I'm going to stop trying so hard to pretend like everything is perfect and fine. Everything is not perfect and fine. I've done a good job of messing things up and making mistakes. I hurt people and I acted selfishly for a good long time now.
I'm going to work on forgiving me. I'm going to work on being a better human. Not perfect. Just better.