sadness
a long time ago I posted "I think I like sadness cause it gives me walls" and Tau wanted me to elaborate or explain and I couldn't at the time. but now I think one reason is that being sad over a percieved "injury" or because the world isn't the way I would want it to be causes me to judge myself and my life by my own standards and not someone else's. but it also keeps me in/within which is not always good. I guess there must be happy medium. I wonder how many years it takes to get there.