A love like I have never felt before...
Have you ever just felt this connection with someone... that they are everything you have ever wanted and then some... every time you think of them your heart fills with joy and pleasure. I never thought I'd ever feel that way with anyone... Then I found the one person that seems to be everything I have ever wanted, ever needed... One person that completely fills my heart with joy, with love, with a caring so deep I am so lost in the emotions I feel...
Every time I get sad or I feel down I think of the one person that makes me happy... that makes me want to be everything that I can be. Every time I think about him it fills me with a happiness I just can not describe. For the last year I have been doing everything that I thought was expected of me... I did what everyone wanted me to do. I was what everyone wanted me to be... But the one thing I wanted more then anything in the world seemed so far away. Like a dream that I just felt would never come true.
Now I finally know what it was that I was missing... I was missing the one person that made me want to be me. The one person that made me happy to be myself... I've tried to change everything about me to make everyone else happy. I tried to do what was expected of me... what was asked of me. But I forgot the one thing that was important... to just be myself. To be happy with who I am. Because in order to change... To become the person I want to be. I have to know that who I am is ok.... I just need to improve on that for myself. No one else.
Since he came back into my life... he's brought me the one gift I really needed. Someone who loves me for who I am... Not who they want me to be. I love that. I love him more then anything.
I have felt love before... I have felt pain beyond belief. I have experienced joy... I have experienced loss so deep it feels like nothing will ever be the same. But through it all. I have held out hope that one day I would find someone that could truly love me... I know I have found this person. I know that he loves me... I know that he cares about me in a way no one has ever cared about me before... and loves me in a way no one has ever loved me before.
Every time I touch him... every time he touches me... it feels as if the world stops for a moment and there is no one else in the world but the two of us. It makes me want to know everything about him... to be there with him through the good and the bad. As long as he wants me I will never ever leave him. He has me heart and soul!
I have a connection with this guy that I have never ever felt with anyone else... not even close. I feel a closeness with him that makes my heart beat faster... we have a connection I don't quite understand but everything in me tells me it's ok. That everything will be ok... That I can let go and love him. I know I don't have to be scared... and I don't have to hold back. I know I can tell him anything... Now I just have to get up the courage to do just that.
I am open to new experiences... I want to do things with him that previously made me afraid. Knowing that he's there with me makes it ok... I want him to feel everything I feel. I want him to feel as loved as I feel... I want him to know that I love him. That I care. I want to make him feel what he felt with me before... I'm hoping he'll be able to love me again as much or more then he loved me the first time around. If he doesn't already.
I know that if I just open up and let myself live... Let myself feel. That he will do the same. I love seeing him smile. I know looking forward that everything will work out just fine. It's such a wonderful feeling.
Every time I get sad or I feel down I think of the one person that makes me happy... that makes me want to be everything that I can be. Every time I think about him it fills me with a happiness I just can not describe. For the last year I have been doing everything that I thought was expected of me... I did what everyone wanted me to do. I was what everyone wanted me to be... But the one thing I wanted more then anything in the world seemed so far away. Like a dream that I just felt would never come true.
Now I finally know what it was that I was missing... I was missing the one person that made me want to be me. The one person that made me happy to be myself... I've tried to change everything about me to make everyone else happy. I tried to do what was expected of me... what was asked of me. But I forgot the one thing that was important... to just be myself. To be happy with who I am. Because in order to change... To become the person I want to be. I have to know that who I am is ok.... I just need to improve on that for myself. No one else.
Since he came back into my life... he's brought me the one gift I really needed. Someone who loves me for who I am... Not who they want me to be. I love that. I love him more then anything.
I have felt love before... I have felt pain beyond belief. I have experienced joy... I have experienced loss so deep it feels like nothing will ever be the same. But through it all. I have held out hope that one day I would find someone that could truly love me... I know I have found this person. I know that he loves me... I know that he cares about me in a way no one has ever cared about me before... and loves me in a way no one has ever loved me before.
Every time I touch him... every time he touches me... it feels as if the world stops for a moment and there is no one else in the world but the two of us. It makes me want to know everything about him... to be there with him through the good and the bad. As long as he wants me I will never ever leave him. He has me heart and soul!
I have a connection with this guy that I have never ever felt with anyone else... not even close. I feel a closeness with him that makes my heart beat faster... we have a connection I don't quite understand but everything in me tells me it's ok. That everything will be ok... That I can let go and love him. I know I don't have to be scared... and I don't have to hold back. I know I can tell him anything... Now I just have to get up the courage to do just that.
I am open to new experiences... I want to do things with him that previously made me afraid. Knowing that he's there with me makes it ok... I want him to feel everything I feel. I want him to feel as loved as I feel... I want him to know that I love him. That I care. I want to make him feel what he felt with me before... I'm hoping he'll be able to love me again as much or more then he loved me the first time around. If he doesn't already.
I know that if I just open up and let myself live... Let myself feel. That he will do the same. I love seeing him smile. I know looking forward that everything will work out just fine. It's such a wonderful feeling.