THIS IS A PITY PARTY POST

[beerbad]

Hello esteemed friends and colleagues,

I would like to open with this re-post of my Meredith/Lexie vid "Early Winter" that I made back in the middle of season 4. Let's remember the glory days:

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[speed_of_me]

Yeah the saddest part is where I cried a little in the car earlier today when Maroon 5's "Payphone" came on the radio...and a montage of my fictional life with Alexandra Caroline Grey ran through my head...y'know, us having a picnic, riding a tandem bike, her having my kid, our kid's college graduation, all that fun stuff.

And of COURSE I wasn't alone in the car either.

DAMMIT I THOUGHT I WAS DOING BETTER

[beerbad]

I hear ya... after I finished the ep last night I kept trying to comfort myself by thinking of Meredith/Lexie cuddles but oh wait now that she's gone it doesn't work anymore. Because you can't be comforted over your own death? fffffffffffucking goddamnit.