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mom's birthday today...sent her flowers...
apparently i was the only one who remembered to get her anything rather than just taking her out to dinner...
kind of sad that i missed my mom's first sober birthday in so long...
feel like i'm missing out on something...feel like something is calling me back sometimes...know that it's just my desire to be on more familiar territory...
going to force myself to go out tonight...was mildly productive today, but could have been moreso...i think i have been avoiding the social climate for too long and need to do something about it...
at least now i'm having good moments and bad, and think i can acttually say that there are more good ones than not...trouble is the bad ones seem to linger like a storm cloud and the good ones aren't strong enough to break through just yet...
going to go get dressed now...
apparently i was the only one who remembered to get her anything rather than just taking her out to dinner...
kind of sad that i missed my mom's first sober birthday in so long...
feel like i'm missing out on something...feel like something is calling me back sometimes...know that it's just my desire to be on more familiar territory...
going to force myself to go out tonight...was mildly productive today, but could have been moreso...i think i have been avoiding the social climate for too long and need to do something about it...
at least now i'm having good moments and bad, and think i can acttually say that there are more good ones than not...trouble is the bad ones seem to linger like a storm cloud and the good ones aren't strong enough to break through just yet...
going to go get dressed now...