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just got home from therapy. i guess what i though was heading in a healthy direction is instead heading into very dangerous,but sometimes necessary waters...
as it turns out, everything that is going on with me is not suprising, giiven where i have been and how i have been trying so hard to not let it affect me. now that i am letting my emotions back out of my personal pandora's box, i am heading toward that very dangerous place that some people like me need to go to, but that many never come out of. it's like that fgilm, what dreams may come" where robin williams's wife is stuck in that dark place and needs to find it within herself to get out of it, even though she has no idea where to look. it seems i am needing to go to that dark place and get lost, and then find, somewhere within myself, a way out. i've been avoiding this for a long time, again clinically able to see it very clearly, but personally fighting against it with every bit of energy that i have.
guess it's time to refocus...
as it turns out, everything that is going on with me is not suprising, giiven where i have been and how i have been trying so hard to not let it affect me. now that i am letting my emotions back out of my personal pandora's box, i am heading toward that very dangerous place that some people like me need to go to, but that many never come out of. it's like that fgilm, what dreams may come" where robin williams's wife is stuck in that dark place and needs to find it within herself to get out of it, even though she has no idea where to look. it seems i am needing to go to that dark place and get lost, and then find, somewhere within myself, a way out. i've been avoiding this for a long time, again clinically able to see it very clearly, but personally fighting against it with every bit of energy that i have.
guess it's time to refocus...