I hate this.
I hate this I hate this I hate this.
I am just now starting to feel like this is home for me. I mean, I adjusted well enough but it's starting to be comfortable. And I have, uh, thirty (or 29?!) days left. =( I am very, very ervy excited for Indiana Jones, and because of that, excited to go home. And TOSRV, I wouldn't miss it for the world. But I'm already missing here, so badly. Starting to think about packing up, and shipping things home, and getting "souvenirs" and things. It's not like I'll never come back, I think I love it here too much. I don't know how my mom could stay away for so long. (She came when she was little, when she and my dad were first married, and then two years ago and now.) I'm making friends here and making plans here and I don't know. I really don't. There's so much I want to stay out here and learn and live. I didn't get to take Hawaiian language, or religion or anything. I'm doing a meetup with the only other Xkcdian out here interested, but that's gonna be like next week or something.
I guess UH Manoa has architecture, and civil engineering, so maybe, maybe, I will be out here for grad school. (Haha, I just typed gradeschool and had to fix it.) But then what about all the other things I've looked at? My problem is I see so many options and so many alternate routes my life can take that I really wonder where I'll end up. Co-op with Cost of Wisconsin, and go to UW? That is another possibility. Co-op with Disneyworld, go to grad school somewhere, and end up doing Imagineering? Co-op with JPI out in Cali and end up doing something out there? And now this. Maybe it's just because Chami has interior design, but I think if I ended up out here my focus would be more on architecture. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, that was my original plan, inspired by Wright and Gaudi and so on. I mean I really can't see myself not doing architecture, but at the same time I can't see myself not doing an Imagineering-type job. I need some combination of the two, like start my own more privatized JPI. I mean I've always thought, you know, I'll be a popular architect and get to travel all over to build interesting structures, but, I dunno. I really, really don't. I've been told there's a HIGH demand for people who crossover civil and architecture, because so few do it. But I dunno, where is it all going to lead?
Ohio has always been home for me, I never considered living somewhere else. I don't think I could live here for longer than a few years, because it's so far away from everything. But I don't think I can stay away, either. I don't know, I just don't know.
What I do know is that my problem is that I want to do it all, but other than that... I don't know.
I am just now starting to feel like this is home for me. I mean, I adjusted well enough but it's starting to be comfortable. And I have, uh, thirty (or 29?!) days left. =( I am very, very ervy excited for Indiana Jones, and because of that, excited to go home. And TOSRV, I wouldn't miss it for the world. But I'm already missing here, so badly. Starting to think about packing up, and shipping things home, and getting "souvenirs" and things. It's not like I'll never come back, I think I love it here too much. I don't know how my mom could stay away for so long. (She came when she was little, when she and my dad were first married, and then two years ago and now.) I'm making friends here and making plans here and I don't know. I really don't. There's so much I want to stay out here and learn and live. I didn't get to take Hawaiian language, or religion or anything. I'm doing a meetup with the only other Xkcdian out here interested, but that's gonna be like next week or something.
I guess UH Manoa has architecture, and civil engineering, so maybe, maybe, I will be out here for grad school. (Haha, I just typed gradeschool and had to fix it.) But then what about all the other things I've looked at? My problem is I see so many options and so many alternate routes my life can take that I really wonder where I'll end up. Co-op with Cost of Wisconsin, and go to UW? That is another possibility. Co-op with Disneyworld, go to grad school somewhere, and end up doing Imagineering? Co-op with JPI out in Cali and end up doing something out there? And now this. Maybe it's just because Chami has interior design, but I think if I ended up out here my focus would be more on architecture. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, that was my original plan, inspired by Wright and Gaudi and so on. I mean I really can't see myself not doing architecture, but at the same time I can't see myself not doing an Imagineering-type job. I need some combination of the two, like start my own more privatized JPI. I mean I've always thought, you know, I'll be a popular architect and get to travel all over to build interesting structures, but, I dunno. I really, really don't. I've been told there's a HIGH demand for people who crossover civil and architecture, because so few do it. But I dunno, where is it all going to lead?
Ohio has always been home for me, I never considered living somewhere else. I don't think I could live here for longer than a few years, because it's so far away from everything. But I don't think I can stay away, either. I don't know, I just don't know.
What I do know is that my problem is that I want to do it all, but other than that... I don't know.