woah.
I haven't written in here in quite a long time. But I'm procrastinating, and then I remembered about this and decided to come on. I used to come on livejournal for about 29310983 hours a week. Crazy.
So right now everything is just really stressful wiht universities and summatives and Christmas and EVERYTHING. I don't want to to stay in Ottawa for university, but it's pretty much positive that I'm going to stay in this stupid city and live in this stupid house in the middle of nowhere. It's going to be exactly like high school, but worse, because all my friends will be gone and I won't meet anyone new because I'll be living at home. Sounds marvellous. The one thing I'm going to do when I'm an adult is be rich, but not for me so I can have a nice life, but for my kids so when it comes time for them to go to University they have the choice of going away. Actually... it's not even that my parents don't have the money, they have been saving since I was born pretty much, but just because it costs almost double the amount to go away. But after I'm done with University, all the money they will have spent on me for my EDUCATION will have gone to good use because I will have had a good experience. My parents are just too old to understand how anything works these days. They don't understand that I hate Ottawa, and that pretty much since I started grade 9 and started talking about universities that I wanted to go to Dal, or even now that I would like to go to Acadia or St. FX. They don't understand that they will be wasting their money for me to go to Ottawa U or Carleton. I won't be happy. So maybe I might as well not even go to university... except that I know I will.
I just don't think that the amount of money spent on an education really matters in the end. After I get a degree and everything, and then get a job I can repay them that money if that's what they,re really concerned about. I understand that University is a lot of money, and going away is even more... but I just really don't think you can put a price on the experience I would have if I didn't live here. And plus, I need out. This is the time in my life when I am supposed to be starting to make my own decisions for real, and kind of starting a new part of my life. None of that will be able to happen if nothing changes. I just wish they understood that. Any of it.
So right now everything is just really stressful wiht universities and summatives and Christmas and EVERYTHING. I don't want to to stay in Ottawa for university, but it's pretty much positive that I'm going to stay in this stupid city and live in this stupid house in the middle of nowhere. It's going to be exactly like high school, but worse, because all my friends will be gone and I won't meet anyone new because I'll be living at home. Sounds marvellous. The one thing I'm going to do when I'm an adult is be rich, but not for me so I can have a nice life, but for my kids so when it comes time for them to go to University they have the choice of going away. Actually... it's not even that my parents don't have the money, they have been saving since I was born pretty much, but just because it costs almost double the amount to go away. But after I'm done with University, all the money they will have spent on me for my EDUCATION will have gone to good use because I will have had a good experience. My parents are just too old to understand how anything works these days. They don't understand that I hate Ottawa, and that pretty much since I started grade 9 and started talking about universities that I wanted to go to Dal, or even now that I would like to go to Acadia or St. FX. They don't understand that they will be wasting their money for me to go to Ottawa U or Carleton. I won't be happy. So maybe I might as well not even go to university... except that I know I will.
I just don't think that the amount of money spent on an education really matters in the end. After I get a degree and everything, and then get a job I can repay them that money if that's what they,re really concerned about. I understand that University is a lot of money, and going away is even more... but I just really don't think you can put a price on the experience I would have if I didn't live here. And plus, I need out. This is the time in my life when I am supposed to be starting to make my own decisions for real, and kind of starting a new part of my life. None of that will be able to happen if nothing changes. I just wish they understood that. Any of it.