a certain "i don't know what"

[meowmixfever]

curious at what the future holds
my heart aches at the thought of my family not needing my funky presence
hurting when the thought of change dwindles in my mind
where am i supposed to be
where am i going
i am so happy it hurts
yet hurt at times my happiness is neglected
so many emotions to deal with
i'm leaving work early.