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The lovely Maya has been sick for several weeks. Bronchitis and, as it turned out, lung cancer. She wasn't getting better, and took a serious turn for the worse over the weekend.
I went over to say goodbye to her yesterday. Her family decided it was best to euthanise her. I am not sure I've stopped crying since yesterday morning, except when I was sleeping. There is an empty space in my life without her - I've worked for her family, walking her and 'sitting for her, for three years. She is still on my Google calendar, and in my planner. I can't bring myself to clear it.
The last thing I said to her yesterday was what I said to her every time I left after 'sitting for her, or taking her for a walk:
"Ok, Maya. Be a good girl. I love you."
I went over to say goodbye to her yesterday. Her family decided it was best to euthanise her. I am not sure I've stopped crying since yesterday morning, except when I was sleeping. There is an empty space in my life without her - I've worked for her family, walking her and 'sitting for her, for three years. She is still on my Google calendar, and in my planner. I can't bring myself to clear it.
The last thing I said to her yesterday was what I said to her every time I left after 'sitting for her, or taking her for a walk:
"Ok, Maya. Be a good girl. I love you."