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it's been a while.
I was reading over my old entries. Wow. That's all i can really say.
I have changed sooo much. And reading the things i was going through five years ago really made me realize it. I was such a child. And the things that happened were so much bigger than I was.
What's funny though, is that a lot of stuff that had happened, happened again.
I haven't seen Peyton in two years. Sad? EXTREMELY. I thought it was bad not seeing him for a couple months. It's been a couple years, and I am devistated. What's worse is that Scott texts me every once in a while to see how things are, and yet never mentions me seeing him anytime soon. It's awful.
I had a job at Elephant Bar. Loved it for the most part, then it just got really ridiculous. They fired me. For no reason. But it's ok. they'll get theirs. :)
I have a boyfriend. His name is John, and he's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him with all my heart.
Not in school, unfortunately. Just job hunting. Waiting on a call from Sam's Club about employment, which will hopefully happen tomorrow.
I have been reconnecting with high school friends and stuff via Facebook and text messaging. I like it. Reading my old entries really made me miss Vicky. A lot. I'll have to shoot her a text. I think she may be back in California. We need to catch up.
There are few people in my life right now. My mom lives far. i miss her. We still talk, but it's not the same, especially with Wes in the picture. My brother is still there, but he's married now, and has his own things to deal with. My grandmother passed away. It really hurt me to read the things I have posted about her in the past. I know i was young, and i was angry, and i said things that i didn't mean, but it still hurt. I loved my grandma, and as an adult, i realize what had gone on. I don't see my cousins much anymore. My cousin Nathan and i had gotten close for a while, but then i moved, and drama with my dad happened, and we don't talk as much as we used to. Mainly because i know he'll tell my dad everything. I am not on speaking terms with my father right now because he had kicked me out with nowhere to go, and he had slandered my name to everyone in the family, which i obviously don't appreciate. I won't talk to him until i'm sure that there won't be an argument. I hate to argue, so i'm staying quiet for now. As for friends, a lot of them have gone separate ways, and i have too, i guess. People grow, people change. I happens. Things will be ok.
So i just try to stay positive about everything, unlike my younger self. God will take care of everything. :)
Anywho, i think this has been a sufficient update. I plan on updating this a lot more often. It's nice to have a release that the whole world isn't gonna read and judge me on. I'll be back soon.
I was reading over my old entries. Wow. That's all i can really say.
I have changed sooo much. And reading the things i was going through five years ago really made me realize it. I was such a child. And the things that happened were so much bigger than I was.
What's funny though, is that a lot of stuff that had happened, happened again.
I haven't seen Peyton in two years. Sad? EXTREMELY. I thought it was bad not seeing him for a couple months. It's been a couple years, and I am devistated. What's worse is that Scott texts me every once in a while to see how things are, and yet never mentions me seeing him anytime soon. It's awful.
I had a job at Elephant Bar. Loved it for the most part, then it just got really ridiculous. They fired me. For no reason. But it's ok. they'll get theirs. :)
I have a boyfriend. His name is John, and he's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him with all my heart.
Not in school, unfortunately. Just job hunting. Waiting on a call from Sam's Club about employment, which will hopefully happen tomorrow.
I have been reconnecting with high school friends and stuff via Facebook and text messaging. I like it. Reading my old entries really made me miss Vicky. A lot. I'll have to shoot her a text. I think she may be back in California. We need to catch up.
There are few people in my life right now. My mom lives far. i miss her. We still talk, but it's not the same, especially with Wes in the picture. My brother is still there, but he's married now, and has his own things to deal with. My grandmother passed away. It really hurt me to read the things I have posted about her in the past. I know i was young, and i was angry, and i said things that i didn't mean, but it still hurt. I loved my grandma, and as an adult, i realize what had gone on. I don't see my cousins much anymore. My cousin Nathan and i had gotten close for a while, but then i moved, and drama with my dad happened, and we don't talk as much as we used to. Mainly because i know he'll tell my dad everything. I am not on speaking terms with my father right now because he had kicked me out with nowhere to go, and he had slandered my name to everyone in the family, which i obviously don't appreciate. I won't talk to him until i'm sure that there won't be an argument. I hate to argue, so i'm staying quiet for now. As for friends, a lot of them have gone separate ways, and i have too, i guess. People grow, people change. I happens. Things will be ok.
So i just try to stay positive about everything, unlike my younger self. God will take care of everything. :)
Anywho, i think this has been a sufficient update. I plan on updating this a lot more often. It's nice to have a release that the whole world isn't gonna read and judge me on. I'll be back soon.