Supernatural tingliness
God damn shadow people. Holy shit, Wikipedia says I'm experiencing hypnagogia since I am partly sleepy but jived. Nevermind, that's just the sleep paralysis. I've had it once and it is teh shit. I heard like this droning noise on the background and I couldn't move. I've had it three times. I learned in my second experience that I can fully wake up if you get all angry. Anyways, I was thrown off because of the noise and I couldn't make myself angry. I left that paralysis after struggling a bit to wake up.
Oh yeah, I have seen a shadow person once. (Dang, another ghost in my vision.) Anyways, I'm more afraid of being in the house alone during the day than the night. (What was that noise?) I made this joke at my sister telling her that ghosts need to sleep too [so they haunt more during the day]. The shadow person had red eyes, seriously. It was probably like 2 - 2.5 feet tall and it was standing in the kitchen, next to my cat's food bowl just looking at me. I focus my eyes and poof, it's gone, like a weak dream.
Dude, there was a 1 week period where I swore I saw the cat leaving the door in front of me and walking under my chair where I sit when I use the computer. There was no cat. It happened a bunch of time and I creeped my sister out in telling her I saw the cat in the corner of the hallway, door, blah. Am I having a simple partial seizure? All these wikipedia article reading makes for some mighty fine topics.
Depersonalization? I wonder if anyone has had this. It is sort of cool. It's like the feeling that you're out of your body and it makes me wonder if Buddhists mistake it for englightenment. Anyways, when I was younger, like 8-10, I did have feeling of depersonalization but it always happened when I enter/left restaurants. Wait, how did I make myself depersonalize? I realized myself! I thought to myself, "I'm me. I'm alive. How?" The feeling happened simultaneously while that statement passed through my mind. I see myself, just a vision of myself, 5 seconds before from where I was walking suddenly yanked into my body in the present way to fast speed. Times all surreal for the few seconds it lasts. It happened once when I was swimming in the college pool underwater, I got freaked out I would drown. Wikipedia says "Sufferers of depersonalization feel divorced from both the world and from their own identity and physicality. Often a person who has experienced depersonalization claims that life "feels like a movie or things seem unreal, or hazy." That is so true. It's a weird feeling. "This feeling is said to be like being a ghost. Another possible way to describe the actual physical manifestation ofthe feeling is to compare the very popular film technique called a Vertigo shot or Dolly Zoom." The Vertigo shot is like holy hell, that's what I felt. Wikipedia is wicked cool.
What are those things in the corner of my eyes. Rods? I could have sworn I saw a rod outside when I was reading. It moved way too fast.
Anyways, I feel like writing more in a diary after watching "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind". I don't want to forget. Why does diary sound more gayer to me than journal? Oh yeah, Doug.
Oh yeah, I have seen a shadow person once. (Dang, another ghost in my vision.) Anyways, I'm more afraid of being in the house alone during the day than the night. (What was that noise?) I made this joke at my sister telling her that ghosts need to sleep too [so they haunt more during the day]. The shadow person had red eyes, seriously. It was probably like 2 - 2.5 feet tall and it was standing in the kitchen, next to my cat's food bowl just looking at me. I focus my eyes and poof, it's gone, like a weak dream.
Dude, there was a 1 week period where I swore I saw the cat leaving the door in front of me and walking under my chair where I sit when I use the computer. There was no cat. It happened a bunch of time and I creeped my sister out in telling her I saw the cat in the corner of the hallway, door, blah. Am I having a simple partial seizure? All these wikipedia article reading makes for some mighty fine topics.
Depersonalization? I wonder if anyone has had this. It is sort of cool. It's like the feeling that you're out of your body and it makes me wonder if Buddhists mistake it for englightenment. Anyways, when I was younger, like 8-10, I did have feeling of depersonalization but it always happened when I enter/left restaurants. Wait, how did I make myself depersonalize? I realized myself! I thought to myself, "I'm me. I'm alive. How?" The feeling happened simultaneously while that statement passed through my mind. I see myself, just a vision of myself, 5 seconds before from where I was walking suddenly yanked into my body in the present way to fast speed. Times all surreal for the few seconds it lasts. It happened once when I was swimming in the college pool underwater, I got freaked out I would drown. Wikipedia says "Sufferers of depersonalization feel divorced from both the world and from their own identity and physicality. Often a person who has experienced depersonalization claims that life "feels like a movie or things seem unreal, or hazy." That is so true. It's a weird feeling. "This feeling is said to be like being a ghost. Another possible way to describe the actual physical manifestation ofthe feeling is to compare the very popular film technique called a Vertigo shot or Dolly Zoom." The Vertigo shot is like holy hell, that's what I felt. Wikipedia is wicked cool.
What are those things in the corner of my eyes. Rods? I could have sworn I saw a rod outside when I was reading. It moved way too fast.
Anyways, I feel like writing more in a diary after watching "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind". I don't want to forget. Why does diary sound more gayer to me than journal? Oh yeah, Doug.