Will we ever get back to "normal"?
Over the past 2 years or more, I have found myself less and less involved in life, and the life of the world. Of course I understand that this may well be because of Ralf’s death. I understand that I am keeping myself safe by not feeling.
The pandemic has not helped at all and neither has the political climate in this country. As a matter of fact, neither has the political climate across the planet.I wonder when we will learn to trust again.
I'm not feeling safe or trusting that everything will be alright. I know that it won't. I will never see my son again in this lifetime. I have no trust that there will be another lifetime. I have lost trust in humankind, have no faith that we are learning to be better or that we will think of the common good rather than only about the self. At first I saw the Trumpian USA as the evil empire, but other countries are on the same trajectory. Right wing hatred is permeating. Self above all seems to be the guiding motto. I wish this was only about politics. I could then push it off into the corner of my mind that blames a few. But I see this on the freeways - when drivers do not care about the safety of others, only their need for thrills and speed. I see it in the amount of theft that is happening in San Francisco, and from reports all across the country. People steal and rob, and care little about the consequences. People drive like madmen and care little about whom they may harm. People refuse to do the bit of adjustment, avoid the small discomfort that would help keep others from getting COVID.
As I am typing this, I am thinking to myself: "Am I being too simplistic? Are there possibly other reasons that I am not thinking of?" Of course there are. That, however, doesn't change my questions.
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