Sunday nights depress me. It means the start of another week facing the mindless monotony of a job I can’t stand. I dread it so utterly. My mood plummets as the evening goes on and I feel desolate and hopeless. Yeah I know the economy sucks and I should be lucky to have a job. But it’s just so…soulless and I feel like it eats away at me and my ( Read more... )

In Other News...
First off, thank you to everyone who took the time to comment or email their support and thoughts on my post(s) about the loss of Panda. It greatly moved me to have such a kind group of friends share in my sadness.

A Delayed Cold RealizationBut in trying to catch up beyond that point, I'm finally starting to feel better. What ( Read more... )

Slow PoisonSomeday - and hopefully sooner rather than later - someday we will look back at chemotherapy and shake our heads in sorrow. Wondering how we ever once considered slow poison the best way to deal with cancer. We'll have unlocked it's secrets and it's weaknesses and we'll have come up with healthy ways of destroying the cancer without ( Read more... )

Wednesday Was a Crazy Day
Car repair completed, finding out about my sister's breast cancer treatments, and a power outage all in one day.The day started off in a torrential downpour around 6am. It rained non-stop for about three hours and stayed rainy and cloudy the entire day. I should have known it would mean it was going to be a hard day from ( Read more... )

One Short Week of FreedomSo...bad news. (What else is new though?) I've had freedom in the form of a car for only a week before we've got a problem. Something somewhere in what I believe must be the exhaust system has gone to hell in an extremely horrifically loud hand basket. When I say loud, I mean earsplitting, headache-inducing decibels of ( Read more... )

Good Thoughts AppreciatedMy sister goes in for her breast cancer surgery tomorrow, Monday, October 1st. (Ironically, October is Breast Cancer Awareness month.) I called her last night and we chatted for a bit but as much as it was the last thing I wanted to do, I couldn't help but get teary when we were hanging up. I'm such a crier. I don't mean to ( Read more... )

The Elephant In The Room


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Entry With WordsI haven't really posted a lot lately of the written variety. Most have been picture posts, mainly discussing crafts-in-progress. I've been crafting a LOT lately. Working on my Faerie Hutches and my Full Moon Swaps items for hours and hours at a time. The hutches especially have sunk me in. I just sit and play and paint and zone. I ( Read more... )

Harsh FeelingsThe last couple days have been a comedy of errors in text, I swear. I've been hurt by several people's words through various sources and I find myself feeling like a wounded animal at this point: crouched in the corner, ready to bite to defend myself ( Read more... )

A Consistent Lack Of Consistency
Jeez. I don't know what's with me lately. I don't mean to leave my journal hanging without a new entry for a week at a time, but it seems to keep happening. By the time I remember I didn't write an entry, I've shut the pc down and am brushing my teeth for bed. I think, "oh, I'll post tomorrow" but then tomorrow ( Read more... )