i'm sorry. did you just address me as "your friend"?
fool me once; shame on you.
fool me twice; shame on me.
i'll never let myself be fooled by you again. not a day has gone by since we last spoke that i havent thought about what i would say to you if i ever saw you again. but i couldnt recall a single one of those thoughts when i saw your face the other night, uncertain and guilt-ridden. i have never truly hated anyone in my life and i sometimes find it hard to say that i hate someone when i know that i dont mean it. but with you, those are the words that i find come easiest to my lips. i hate you, jennifer, with every cell that makes my body and every thought that makes me who i am. you're a bad person, with a black heart and an empty hole for a soul. i hope you live out the remainder of your days alone and un-loved. you're undeserving of anyone's trust and anyone's heart. the very thought of you dating one of jason's best friends makes me sick. i hope for his sake he realizes what kind of person you really are and breaks your cold, blackened heart into a million little pieces. he deserves so much better than you. you're a hopeless waste of god-given air and i hope that someday you have to choke on your own pathetically convincing bullshit. you make me want to commit murder everytime i so much as hear your soulless voice. i hope for your own sake, you realize who you are and who you've hurt and do your damnedest to change and make your life worth living for. i truly hope you change so that one day i can have the personal satisfaction of seeing you crying and hurt when someone rejects you the way you've rejected them. i also hope that it kills you to see that i've moved on and become happy and that i love and am loved by someone else. i guess i owe that to you in some small part and i should be thanking you. instead, i'll leave you to ponder and wallow in your own self-pity of being soulless and alone. i loathe you, jennifer, and know that if i ever see you again, i will not stay silent or immobile as i did that night. so smile empty soul...
..and rachel, i love you.