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so its turned into a horrible situation. not like it wasnt before.. but it got worse. mom kicked us out.. we decided to live with dad.. dad was going to move to deland for us ..i was actually really excited about it all.. we even found a house and everything. i was looking forward to starting over. all that came crashing to the ground thursday night.
my dad and i got home and the phone rang. it was someone from work.. when he hung up he was serious. we stood in the kitchen and had a long talk. well HE talked mostly.. i just listened.. i was shocked. so heres the story: USairways is cutting flights here in fort lauderdale.. there are already too many employees as it is.. so of course if they're cutting flights, they obviously have to lay people off. normally, in vegas, if this type of situation arose, my dad wouldnt worry about it. but for some reason.. he doesnt have as much seniority here.. which means even though hes a supervisor.. he has a much better chance of being one of the people getting layed off. what does that mean? the only way to actually save his job is to move back to las vegas.
yea =(
as we sat there and talked that night, my dad cried in front of me for the first time in my life. its was the scariest thing in the world to see the strongest person ive ever known break down like that. the amazing thing is.. the reason why he broke down.. is because he loves my brother and i SO much.. that he just wants us to be happy.. but in this situation.. he cant work it out to where we get we want. that shows what an absolutely amazing person my father is. and im so glad im finally realizing how lucky i am to have him in my life.
the entire time ive been here, ive relaxed and tried to just forget about everything thats going on right now. usually im the type of person that gets extremely emotional about a situation like this but for some reason.. im numb. i havent really cried the entire time any of this has been going on. thats a freaking miracle. im the most emotional, sensitive person on this planet. i dont get it.
im hoping. wishing. praying for the best. im praying for this all to work out. but either way, the situation is horrible. either i move to vegas and kiss goodbye my life in deland.. which would be heart breaking.. or i find a way to stay in deland.. but have to deal with the fact that my dad HAS to move back to vegas to survive. =/
i was looking forward to living with him so much.
then again i was looking forward to this year so much.
i dont know what to do.
i dont know what i can do.
this is horrible =(