20 Weird Fucked Up Facts About Me.
1. I was in the talented and gifted program from 2nd to 10th grade, then deliberately failed my AP english class my sophomore year so I could get out of it. I didn't want to be seen as a nerd, one of my biggest mistakes.
2. My dad was physically, mentally and emotionally abusive to my mom and sisters, but never laid a hand on me, for that I feel guilty.
3. My mom chose not to teach my sisters and I spanish because when she was growing up she would get in trouble for speaking spanish at school and didn't want us to go through the same thing.
4. I'm almost 21 years old and have never had a real job, outside of babysitting I've never earned my own money.
5. I've struggled with bulimia and anorexia for 2 years but no one knows and if they suspect anything they don't mention it.
6. I crave sympathy and sometimes secretly wish to develop some terrible disease to gain it.
7. I'm extremely flexible, I can stick my legs behind my head, I can do back walkovers, even though I'm fairly overweight.
8. I'm OCD with numbers, everything has to be done in multiples of 2 and sometimes I feel the need to trace words and add exactly 22 exclamation points to them, I also have 22 scars from cutting on each arm and leg.
9. Sometimes in order to leave my house I have to say in my head "You don't care what others say, fuck 'em" if I don't say it I get physically sick and if I'm at the store or something and I feel that someone is looking at me I have to tell myself that its OK, they don't matter.
10. On the rare occasion I go out I have to go alone, I go to concerts alone, movies, dinner, and if I am planning on meeting someone at the place I have to drive my own car there, in case I want to leave early.
11. I love the colors hot pink and lime green but refuse to wear them because I don't want to stand out too much.
12. I love kids but don't want any of my own.
13. I love cooking and baking and I do it a lot but I refuse to eat anything I make.
14. I hate sex, I think its over rated and could completely live without it.
15. I was sexually abused by a family member for years and to this day have never told anyone, which could explain the above.
16. I hate complete silence, it allows me to think, and usually what I think about isn't pleasant, so I have to have music playing or a TV on at all times.
17. I'm hate going out to my car in the dark, I always imagine people hiding in the bushes waiting to jump out at me, but am completely fine with going on 2 am runs completely solo.
18. I have a completely screwed up body image when I was 80 pounds I thought I was the fattest person alive but at a significantly larger size I thought I looked OK.
19. I'm the only one in my family to have ever broken a bone, my collarbone, and because no one knew the extent of my injury I went 2 weeks with it broken before I saw a doctor.
20. I've been known to take far more then the recommended amount of ibuprofen for every little ache and pain in hopes of fucking up my stomach lining beyond repair.
2. My dad was physically, mentally and emotionally abusive to my mom and sisters, but never laid a hand on me, for that I feel guilty.
3. My mom chose not to teach my sisters and I spanish because when she was growing up she would get in trouble for speaking spanish at school and didn't want us to go through the same thing.
4. I'm almost 21 years old and have never had a real job, outside of babysitting I've never earned my own money.
5. I've struggled with bulimia and anorexia for 2 years but no one knows and if they suspect anything they don't mention it.
6. I crave sympathy and sometimes secretly wish to develop some terrible disease to gain it.
7. I'm extremely flexible, I can stick my legs behind my head, I can do back walkovers, even though I'm fairly overweight.
8. I'm OCD with numbers, everything has to be done in multiples of 2 and sometimes I feel the need to trace words and add exactly 22 exclamation points to them, I also have 22 scars from cutting on each arm and leg.
9. Sometimes in order to leave my house I have to say in my head "You don't care what others say, fuck 'em" if I don't say it I get physically sick and if I'm at the store or something and I feel that someone is looking at me I have to tell myself that its OK, they don't matter.
10. On the rare occasion I go out I have to go alone, I go to concerts alone, movies, dinner, and if I am planning on meeting someone at the place I have to drive my own car there, in case I want to leave early.
11. I love the colors hot pink and lime green but refuse to wear them because I don't want to stand out too much.
12. I love kids but don't want any of my own.
13. I love cooking and baking and I do it a lot but I refuse to eat anything I make.
14. I hate sex, I think its over rated and could completely live without it.
15. I was sexually abused by a family member for years and to this day have never told anyone, which could explain the above.
16. I hate complete silence, it allows me to think, and usually what I think about isn't pleasant, so I have to have music playing or a TV on at all times.
17. I'm hate going out to my car in the dark, I always imagine people hiding in the bushes waiting to jump out at me, but am completely fine with going on 2 am runs completely solo.
18. I have a completely screwed up body image when I was 80 pounds I thought I was the fattest person alive but at a significantly larger size I thought I looked OK.
19. I'm the only one in my family to have ever broken a bone, my collarbone, and because no one knew the extent of my injury I went 2 weeks with it broken before I saw a doctor.
20. I've been known to take far more then the recommended amount of ibuprofen for every little ache and pain in hopes of fucking up my stomach lining beyond repair.