so i guess it's my turn...
i'm gettin an ipod. wonder of wonders. the bigger wonder was that i made it to the gym yesterday. another good reason to get the ipod. i'll be able to listen to barlow girl to my heart's content. hahahahaha... no matter where i am! there are a couple cd's i have yet to load on my hard drive so that they'll be there for ipod loading purposes. i got the black one coz i wanted it. i thought of kristinangel when i saw the U2 ipod. hahahahaha... but anyway, i got the black one and had a scripture engraved on it: I will sing a new song to You, O Lord Psalm 144:9. wheeeeeeeeeee! so i have a word from the Lord wherever i go!! *shakes booty in the ipod's general direction* perhaps i'll have it by the end of the week. i guess i was using my tax return for an ipod after all. hee hee hee...
i'm finally gonna try to finish that blanket that was tossed in my lap about 2 years ago. one of the girls who was dating the bassist of Power Plant gave me a book and a big bag of yarn to go with it. then she asks me to make the project shown on the cover. when i looked at it, i told her that i don't know how to make that and i would have to learn. that didn't seem to matter to her. instead of saying no, i took it as a challenge for myself since i wanted to learn new stitches but i've been bitter about it for years. i'm letting this be a stronghold in m life and i refuse to give the enemy that 'in' to my life. so i'm going to try again with the two-toned diagonal granny squares that irked me so much those years ago. i'm nearly done with the project i'm working on now so i can get started, re-started?, on this project so i can get 'er done and get it out of my closet. it's taking up room that i could be using for things of my choice. i kinda want to keep the book though. and after this nonsense, i think i should be able to. but since i don't know if the book was meant for me to keep, i won't plan on it unless it's offered to me or unless i ask for it. i don't think it would be right to assume it's mine to keep. but i think the time and frustration from this project should result in the book being the payment for my pain and suffering. or for my mental anguish since i haven't been able to figure out the two-toned diagonal granny square? heh heh. yep, i've seen too many court shows in my time.
but in any case, the fact that i have this project has been a thorn in my side and i haven't been happy about it. i want to keep my word that i would do this project since i never did say no. i told this girl that since i was going to school i didn't know when i would have a chance to work on it. she didn't have a problem with this and then she moved back to where she came from. i had seen her at a Power Plant show awhile back and i felt bad since i was relaying the story to someone and when i saw her i stared daggers at her. Father God, i ask Your forgiveness as i ask You to help me forgive her. i don't want to hold her in bondage but i want to release her to You. i don't think she realized how difficult this project would be since she didn't know how to make the blanket either. she was being selfish by simply throwing this project on me and i can forgive her for that. i need to forgive her for that. i know that no weapon formed against me shall prosper. i feel like this project is causing spiritual attack because i'm letting it. i don't want to allow this to go on anymore. please help me, Lord, to figure out the right way to make the squares necessary to finish this project and to be done with it. i need to have this project gone from my room so i can move on with my life. Father, i don't want to sound petty with this request but it has been hanging over my head for the last 2 years and i have not had a good attitude about it. please change my heart toward this project, o God, and help me to overcome in this situation in the same way that Jesus has overcome the world. i love You, Lord, and i claim this victory in the name of Jesus. Amen.
on another topic... prayer warriors unite! my friend starr and i have been praying about our future mates. being in the captivating group has been stirring things inside us and we ask for confirmation and clarification about our future mates. please help us to keep focused on the tasks God wants us to be focused on rather than who our mates are. we praise You, o Lord, and we trust You to order our steps in the ways You would have us to go. watch over and protect our future mates and keep them in Your ways until Your time comes for us to unite with our mates. i claim this victory for starr and i in the name of Jesus. Amen.
and now to relax before bed. i feel like i did a whole lot of nothing today. so why am i so tired?
i'm finally gonna try to finish that blanket that was tossed in my lap about 2 years ago. one of the girls who was dating the bassist of Power Plant gave me a book and a big bag of yarn to go with it. then she asks me to make the project shown on the cover. when i looked at it, i told her that i don't know how to make that and i would have to learn. that didn't seem to matter to her. instead of saying no, i took it as a challenge for myself since i wanted to learn new stitches but i've been bitter about it for years. i'm letting this be a stronghold in m life and i refuse to give the enemy that 'in' to my life. so i'm going to try again with the two-toned diagonal granny squares that irked me so much those years ago. i'm nearly done with the project i'm working on now so i can get started, re-started?, on this project so i can get 'er done and get it out of my closet. it's taking up room that i could be using for things of my choice. i kinda want to keep the book though. and after this nonsense, i think i should be able to. but since i don't know if the book was meant for me to keep, i won't plan on it unless it's offered to me or unless i ask for it. i don't think it would be right to assume it's mine to keep. but i think the time and frustration from this project should result in the book being the payment for my pain and suffering. or for my mental anguish since i haven't been able to figure out the two-toned diagonal granny square? heh heh. yep, i've seen too many court shows in my time.
but in any case, the fact that i have this project has been a thorn in my side and i haven't been happy about it. i want to keep my word that i would do this project since i never did say no. i told this girl that since i was going to school i didn't know when i would have a chance to work on it. she didn't have a problem with this and then she moved back to where she came from. i had seen her at a Power Plant show awhile back and i felt bad since i was relaying the story to someone and when i saw her i stared daggers at her. Father God, i ask Your forgiveness as i ask You to help me forgive her. i don't want to hold her in bondage but i want to release her to You. i don't think she realized how difficult this project would be since she didn't know how to make the blanket either. she was being selfish by simply throwing this project on me and i can forgive her for that. i need to forgive her for that. i know that no weapon formed against me shall prosper. i feel like this project is causing spiritual attack because i'm letting it. i don't want to allow this to go on anymore. please help me, Lord, to figure out the right way to make the squares necessary to finish this project and to be done with it. i need to have this project gone from my room so i can move on with my life. Father, i don't want to sound petty with this request but it has been hanging over my head for the last 2 years and i have not had a good attitude about it. please change my heart toward this project, o God, and help me to overcome in this situation in the same way that Jesus has overcome the world. i love You, Lord, and i claim this victory in the name of Jesus. Amen.
on another topic... prayer warriors unite! my friend starr and i have been praying about our future mates. being in the captivating group has been stirring things inside us and we ask for confirmation and clarification about our future mates. please help us to keep focused on the tasks God wants us to be focused on rather than who our mates are. we praise You, o Lord, and we trust You to order our steps in the ways You would have us to go. watch over and protect our future mates and keep them in Your ways until Your time comes for us to unite with our mates. i claim this victory for starr and i in the name of Jesus. Amen.
and now to relax before bed. i feel like i did a whole lot of nothing today. so why am i so tired?