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to reminisce [16 Aug 2003|08:29pm]
cu.. cu... cut away.. peel away... must rid myself... must drain myself. dying for some sense of expression. melting for this desire to communicate. there is yelling in the background and wild music in the foreground, directly in front of me. if only i could see them, but oh! i can... i remember. i remember them. i remember all four of him. how i'd like some nicotine. such a voice, such hands, such power. all in a few instruments. four exactly. four tools. four manners. four means of communication. and that star.. that star in the background. his star, his religion. such smoke.. a cloud above me, practically laughing gas... when it was all over. i didn't want to leave. i wanted to bask in their presence, but they'd already left the stage. i never wanted to leave them. i want to leave with them. such presence, such a mark, such a scar. how i want to go back. how i remember that date... how i long to return. if i had to do it over again, it would've been juss draven and me. to see them appear to us, and to vanish. i want to go back. i want to go back. but i must move forward. i must seek to see them once more. to meet them. to speak with them. to see their skin. to be that close. i remember. five rows from the stage. a man kindly gave us his seat, he was so kind. i thank him. i want to go back... 10/28/01
to reminisce
i'm being expelled.. from all this in myhead. [09 Aug 2003|11:03pm]
you've got all this in your hand, all these wills, wants, expressions, and possibilities. however you don't have a fucking clue as to what you should do with them.
[08 Aug 2003|09:00pm]
to be truthful,
i'm scared for you all.
i've faith in you though
to do the best,
to be good to yourselves,
to take care of yourselves.
please, it's all i ask.
is it too much?
[08 Aug 2003|09:42pm]
tear drops suspended in air
are my gift to you.
[07 Aug 2003|11:55am]
provide me some relief
all i ask for is juss some fucking room
to breathe.
give me that much.
[07 Aug 2003|12:50pm]
you make me miserable
and i do return the favor
[05 Aug 2003|12:07am]
one for me, two for you.