cannot sleep..and boom ..livejournal occurs to me
you know, I am not sure what happens inside a person to get them to actually CHANGE.
I have been wondering this.
I believe I have made changes in my life, yet there are many things I am self aware of, yet just cannot seem to tackle.
what finally clicks when someone...or when I in the past ..have made a real change?
it must be something of epic proportions...yet suttle enough for me to not be able to recall
All I know is that I would really like to change some things for 2011.
I am not a new years resolution type of person.
I think personal resolutions and decisions to change ones self for the better should happen all year long
not just on new years day.
My realization though, seems to have come a few days after the new year..
so it looks like a pure coincidence (or not) that I am going to take the steps needed now.
A new year does feel like a clean slate though, I imagine that is why all these half hearted resolutions are made
I make half hearted resolutions all of the time.
I do not intend them to be half hearted when I decalre them in my head, but one way or another most of them turn out to be.
old habits die hard they say..
and i really believe that reigns true in many aspects of life.
Its hard to get out of the comfort zone..
and a change usually requires that ...almost always.
I declare to be better ...starting right now
I would like to be more aware of my attitude towards loved ones
odd how the people in your life that mean the most are often times the one who have to deal with all the bologna of your life.
I tell yah...I got a whole family of attitude..this one will be tough...but even if i slip up, and i know i will, iwill jump right back on track
by learning to say i am sorry...i am wrong
I would also like to be healthier this year.
We are given one body and only one to journey through life and I would like to treat mine well
I am getting a gym membership tomorrow, and although i think it is a bit expensive
i believe a bit of money in exchange for good health is worth it.
I would also like to focus more on teaching
refreshing my brain with strategies and getting together an even better portfolio
I want to practice interview skills and become confident in everything i talk about
i am smart..i should utiliize it.
I would also like to go all out in regards to picking up subbing jobs.
subbing becomes exhausting when you have to go straight to a second job directly after
but i need to just deal with it...i can do it...and it will only help me in the end.
this of course will make the working out part even harder...but i am pretty detirmined about these things
lastly...for now anyways
in order for this to all come together...
I must work on my mental toughnesss
I cannot implode when i get stressed or tired.
I have to keep on moving forward by keeping a close eye on a final goal in sight
I must always remember that a journey of 1, 000 miles starts off with one step!
I often look at all of the work that needs to be done and get discouraged.
but if i keep in mind that every accomplishment is achieved by taking one step at a time then anything should be attainable!
good night...hopefully