I'm Gonna Make It Ok, But Not RIGHT Now...
so i decided i better update before the month slips away...
i signed up for dance class with lauren this week, haha, we better go to every one! im not kidding, we're not skipping for one tree hill or the OC! and you also have to call me meghan the whole time... LoL! we're gonna be the best in that class for sure! we need some interesting glasses i think!
school starts on September Seventh... ughh... i still have summer reading to do, but it's not completely my fault... effing borders!
which reminds me... im stressed! for real! i really cant stand nething right now, tennis is a big headache bc mr. kenney sucks balls... guard is a big headache bc mrs peters for some reason feels the need to get confrentational with me, although she will def lose, and also all she ever talks about is the birth process, which is something i dont wanna kno bout until im absoloutley forced to kno... boys are a BIG BIG headache right now, as if i dont have enough probs with the ones i kno, me and rach met a few more last night, which suprisingly created new problems almost instantly... i need to talk to eric, that will releave lotsa stress bc i think about that whole sitch wayyyy too much, and talking will surely solve that... my parents kno exactly how to frustrate me to the point of tears, and they've been over-using that talent wayyyy too much lately... my next door neighbors have just added MORE stress bc THEY CANNOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF DRAINAGE AND GARDENING!!, and that frustrates me most bc my parents wont let me fucking tell them about it, so i hafta keep quiet, which is HHHHHHHHAAAAAAAARRRRRRRDDDDDDDDD to do.
well, yesterday... SUNDAY, was like the best day in two weeks (give or take)... firstly, i got to sleep in since i ditched that lockin shit... so i slept till like 11:30ish, and then woke up and went out to lunch with rachie @ panera... very delish, and then we went to Best Buy and she got the Shrek2 Soundtrack, with counting crows and dc! so we blasted that for awhile in her car, and then we saw these cute guys stopped at the light next to us... so obviously we raced them to the next light! haha, and won! and then we followed them to the mall, and gave them our digitz, and they called... but we couldnt really hang out. so then rach dropped me off @ home, and i got in a fight with my rentals, so then i went out with pearce! and that was amazingly fun! although the Village for the second time doesnt really make it ne better... that movie's just plain bad... but having someone to hold hands with during it is like the best feeling in the world! and then after the movie, hangin out in the car was soo much fun, but it ended so early... that always happens to us :( ... and then after i got dropped off again, i watched 1/2 of six feet under with my rentals, and then rachie picked me up again and we met up with one of the guys from earlier... but that's a story in itself. so then i went home again and tried to sleep (difficult to say the least)
and then, today... MONDAY, was like the worst day ever. firstly, i had to wake up for tennis @ 8 am, after barely ne sleep... which sucked, and then rach was actin like the biggest douche bag ever on the planet for some reason, which baisically set the tone for the day. so then i had to walk home, and just as i went to get in the shower after two hours of tennis... effing bridget slams the bathroom door in my face, and i hafta sit around for another 1/2 hour stinking! so then i sat around till rachie picked me up for band.... which was THE WORSTTTTt.... mrs peters really fucking annoys me, and then mr pry changed 1/2 our routine, and mrs peters of course let him bc she never stands up to him... so as i was going through the motions, i got all emo... and started crying! looking back, it was pretty funny, but i was just marching along crying! and then i got home only to find out the neighbors called the township on us AGAINNNNNNNNNN... which annoys me to no fucking end! hmmm... that wasnt an accurate description of the worst day ever, but i dont wanna think about it ne more... 's good to have vented! oh yea... and eric's not talking to me again?? i dont fucking kno...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
-as/if/its/not/enough...i/miss/you