Pregnancy, weee
So I am sure you have all seen my announcement on facebook by now. We are pregnant again, due November 3rd (almost 13 weeks along now). Planning on trying to do a few things differently this time around. For one, I am planning on hopefully hiring a doula, assuming I can find one that I like. So far (I know it is early, but you know us) I have met with one, but after the meeting she told me that she is planning on doing midwifery (did I spell that right?) by then so she can't take me on. I was emailing with another that sounded great and was planning on meeting her 2 weeks ago, but I haven't heard from her since then, so no idea why she suddenly vanished. I am hoping having one will make the birth experience a more positive, informed one.
Ok, now follows me ranting about the not fun parts of being pregnant. Consider yourself warned.
Most of you are recent parents...you understand, probably, the amnesia that comes about how bad pregnancy/labor is. I remember intellectually how miserable I was during pregnancy, and how awful morning sickness was, and how much I wanted to get out of town. But emotionally I don't remember it at all, had forgotten completely. So instead of feeling now "oh yeah, I remember this, it will be over soon, I'll be fine," it's like "oh MAN, this is so bad! This is way worse than last time, I am so miserable, there is no way I can get through this!" Ugh.
My nausea and exhaustion seem to build throughout the day. I am mostly OK in the morning (which is good, because that is when my focus is on Ally, so it is nice that I can handle that usually pretty well), but then I eat lunch once I put her down for her nap, and that is when it goes downhill. It seems like my nausea tends to get worse *after* eating instead of before. And since eating is inevitable, so is the nausea. I have been trying lately to take my B6 with my meals, which seems to be helping a little anyway. Nothing that I have found helps the exhaustion though.
I wake up ok, no more drowsy than is normal for me. It only goes downhill from there, though. By the time Paul gets home, I don't want to even leave the house, and by the time Kelly gets home I am lucky if I move from one seat to another. I was so exhausted from trying to go down the stairs the other day that I almost tried Ally's sit and scoot method, lol.
Then there's the emotional aspect - whew. This may be the worst part of all of it, honestly. I can't remember the last time I got through a day without crying or apologizing to Paul for being a bad wife. It has been horrible. I feel sad for *no* reason, you know? It's ridiculous. I just want to get away for a while. In a week and a half hubby and I are going away for the weekend and I need it soooo bad. I just hope it helps for a while, cuz this is nuts.
I am hoping the morning sickness ends soon, but I honestly can't remember when it ended last time (plus each pregnancy is different). Oh! I am pretty sure I can feel flutters tickling my insides already. I wasn't expecting it anywhere near this soon, but I love it. It tickles though, lol. Not really showing yet, just mostly feel like I look fat, lol.
Working on making an amazon registry for the few things that we don't really *need* (because we are pretty well stocked up from Ally, even clothes unless this is a boy), but that might be nice to have. Some signing DVDs that we like, a boppy that looks nice, a giraffe that a friend of ours has that Ally always liked so I thought the new one might like too, etc. We got 2 diaper covers at Kohl's on clearance that we now reaaaaaally love, so I might throw a few of those on there too.
In Ally news, finally has tooth 7, and 8 is right behind (the bottom 3rd and 4th). She hasn't been doing anything in her potty at all lately, which is blah, but we are planning on trying an intensive weekend of potty training over memorial day weekend (nothing on from waist down all day in the house, running her to the potty every time she starts to go and doing a potty happy dance, and hopefully she will get the idea after 3 days of it, lol.) Ready to be diaper free with her, and it would be soooo nice to be so before the new one gets here so we only have one set of diapers at once. She's a smarty, so I think she will pick up on it. Fingers crossed.
We have been telling her for a while in various ways that there is a baby in Mommy's tummy, and I think she is finally catching on a bit. I asked her yesterday if she remembered where I told her the baby was, and she lifted up my shirt and pointed at my tummy. It was super cute. Then she started sharing her toys and books with the baby (laying them on my tummy), and today she gave the baby hugs and kisses. So adorable. We have been reading her a book called "When you were in Mommy's tummy" which is all about how she used to be inside me, and then at the end saying there is another baby in there now. Now that she is getting that, we may have to start reading her the "I'm a big sister" one soon. Her favorite books remain our Mo Willems ones though. Too bad they are all library books - I should add those too my registry too, huh?
For those of you (you probably know who you are, lol) that I have been flaking out on lately in various ways, sorry! My emotional state has not been up for being very social, hopefully 2nd trimester will help a little and I can get things back on track! Prayers, hugs, baby pictures, and shiny letters in the mail are all appreciated, hehe.
Ok, now follows me ranting about the not fun parts of being pregnant. Consider yourself warned.
Most of you are recent parents...you understand, probably, the amnesia that comes about how bad pregnancy/labor is. I remember intellectually how miserable I was during pregnancy, and how awful morning sickness was, and how much I wanted to get out of town. But emotionally I don't remember it at all, had forgotten completely. So instead of feeling now "oh yeah, I remember this, it will be over soon, I'll be fine," it's like "oh MAN, this is so bad! This is way worse than last time, I am so miserable, there is no way I can get through this!" Ugh.
My nausea and exhaustion seem to build throughout the day. I am mostly OK in the morning (which is good, because that is when my focus is on Ally, so it is nice that I can handle that usually pretty well), but then I eat lunch once I put her down for her nap, and that is when it goes downhill. It seems like my nausea tends to get worse *after* eating instead of before. And since eating is inevitable, so is the nausea. I have been trying lately to take my B6 with my meals, which seems to be helping a little anyway. Nothing that I have found helps the exhaustion though.
I wake up ok, no more drowsy than is normal for me. It only goes downhill from there, though. By the time Paul gets home, I don't want to even leave the house, and by the time Kelly gets home I am lucky if I move from one seat to another. I was so exhausted from trying to go down the stairs the other day that I almost tried Ally's sit and scoot method, lol.
Then there's the emotional aspect - whew. This may be the worst part of all of it, honestly. I can't remember the last time I got through a day without crying or apologizing to Paul for being a bad wife. It has been horrible. I feel sad for *no* reason, you know? It's ridiculous. I just want to get away for a while. In a week and a half hubby and I are going away for the weekend and I need it soooo bad. I just hope it helps for a while, cuz this is nuts.
I am hoping the morning sickness ends soon, but I honestly can't remember when it ended last time (plus each pregnancy is different). Oh! I am pretty sure I can feel flutters tickling my insides already. I wasn't expecting it anywhere near this soon, but I love it. It tickles though, lol. Not really showing yet, just mostly feel like I look fat, lol.
Working on making an amazon registry for the few things that we don't really *need* (because we are pretty well stocked up from Ally, even clothes unless this is a boy), but that might be nice to have. Some signing DVDs that we like, a boppy that looks nice, a giraffe that a friend of ours has that Ally always liked so I thought the new one might like too, etc. We got 2 diaper covers at Kohl's on clearance that we now reaaaaaally love, so I might throw a few of those on there too.
In Ally news, finally has tooth 7, and 8 is right behind (the bottom 3rd and 4th). She hasn't been doing anything in her potty at all lately, which is blah, but we are planning on trying an intensive weekend of potty training over memorial day weekend (nothing on from waist down all day in the house, running her to the potty every time she starts to go and doing a potty happy dance, and hopefully she will get the idea after 3 days of it, lol.) Ready to be diaper free with her, and it would be soooo nice to be so before the new one gets here so we only have one set of diapers at once. She's a smarty, so I think she will pick up on it. Fingers crossed.
We have been telling her for a while in various ways that there is a baby in Mommy's tummy, and I think she is finally catching on a bit. I asked her yesterday if she remembered where I told her the baby was, and she lifted up my shirt and pointed at my tummy. It was super cute. Then she started sharing her toys and books with the baby (laying them on my tummy), and today she gave the baby hugs and kisses. So adorable. We have been reading her a book called "When you were in Mommy's tummy" which is all about how she used to be inside me, and then at the end saying there is another baby in there now. Now that she is getting that, we may have to start reading her the "I'm a big sister" one soon. Her favorite books remain our Mo Willems ones though. Too bad they are all library books - I should add those too my registry too, huh?
For those of you (you probably know who you are, lol) that I have been flaking out on lately in various ways, sorry! My emotional state has not been up for being very social, hopefully 2nd trimester will help a little and I can get things back on track! Prayers, hugs, baby pictures, and shiny letters in the mail are all appreciated, hehe.