the ball is rolling
i've started the application.....i'm talking to my advisor tomorrow.....i'm calling the "contact" person after school. i'm going to write my application letter this weekend while studying for my three midterms. it's about damn time i get serious about something in my life. and i think this is a big step-in the right direction for once-for me. i'm stepping out of my comfort zone and finally going to challenge myself. thus far it's been way too easy. i've been able to keep up my lifestyle and still get awesome grades which is good but tells me that this isn't a challenge by any means. i need something to make me get off my ass, stop going out 3-4 nights a week, and grow up. i thought this year would do it but it's the fact that i know i can bullshit my way through. i gotta stop taking the easy route to everything that's what kept me in this retail hell for so fucking long. and i don't want to make it any longer but i know that this will only make things better in the long run for me. and it's fucking time i think i about my future without the double c in it. i need this.