Hairy DJ babies
Its sad that I only write in here when Im sad.Well here is how I feel today.
I feel stupid. I feel stupid for letting myself open up to someone and being vulnerable and just getting my heart broken. Absolutely dumb. I shouldn't have done that. I know how much it hurt when wes and i broke up, and i knew that it would happen again. The thing is, is that I am taking this one much better. Yes i have all the feelings of i miss you and want to be with you and blah blah, but i can keep myself composed while thinking so, and not bawl my eyes out every time. Nobody says anything bad about him, because he was so nice, and I know that. Nobody really has good advice because he was never around, so they dont know how we were together. I just wish I could have done things differently. Not complained, or something. I just wasnt used to having a boyfriend whom i was absolutely in love with not be around all the time. I just didnt know how to feel. Better to do this now my ass. I hate this. THIS FUCKING SUCKS. I pretty much have no hope that our relationship will continue in the future, and that this guy is just another bust. I thought he was different,i thought that we would be together for a long time and that we would get married and have little hairy dj babies, but NO. My dreams are completely shattered of that now. I'm trying to be a little humorous now, i dont know if you will laugh, but i know i did when i said hairy dj babies...anyway...study time here i come. good fucking night people.
I feel stupid. I feel stupid for letting myself open up to someone and being vulnerable and just getting my heart broken. Absolutely dumb. I shouldn't have done that. I know how much it hurt when wes and i broke up, and i knew that it would happen again. The thing is, is that I am taking this one much better. Yes i have all the feelings of i miss you and want to be with you and blah blah, but i can keep myself composed while thinking so, and not bawl my eyes out every time. Nobody says anything bad about him, because he was so nice, and I know that. Nobody really has good advice because he was never around, so they dont know how we were together. I just wish I could have done things differently. Not complained, or something. I just wasnt used to having a boyfriend whom i was absolutely in love with not be around all the time. I just didnt know how to feel. Better to do this now my ass. I hate this. THIS FUCKING SUCKS. I pretty much have no hope that our relationship will continue in the future, and that this guy is just another bust. I thought he was different,i thought that we would be together for a long time and that we would get married and have little hairy dj babies, but NO. My dreams are completely shattered of that now. I'm trying to be a little humorous now, i dont know if you will laugh, but i know i did when i said hairy dj babies...anyway...study time here i come. good fucking night people.