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I'm in love. I'm in love with someone who doesnt want to be with me anymore and it kills me. I have never wanted something so much. I never get what i want. I miss him. I miss him more than I can say it. And he doesnt know. He doesnt know or see what I would do for him. He doesn't know that I would give him anything just to see him happy. That I would cook, and buy him things and give him little notes. Just so he could be happy. I never asked for any of that. all i wanted in return was you. and i cant have it.
The only person, i want to talk to about this is you, and I can't. I can't in fear that it will make you feel bad for what you've done. I dont want you to feel bad. I want to feel that this is a sincere situation and you are doing this for me. That in a couple of months everything will be okay, and things will be normal again. I pray for that. I pray for that and I never pray. I miss you. I love you. And I want you to be with me.
Since you've been gone, i have all these thoughts. I get jealous. Jealous that you will meet someone else when you didnt have time for me. The thought deeply saddens me. I can't write anymore. It hurts to much. Way too much. I can't go on like this. I'm slowly melting inside.
The only person, i want to talk to about this is you, and I can't. I can't in fear that it will make you feel bad for what you've done. I dont want you to feel bad. I want to feel that this is a sincere situation and you are doing this for me. That in a couple of months everything will be okay, and things will be normal again. I pray for that. I pray for that and I never pray. I miss you. I love you. And I want you to be with me.
Since you've been gone, i have all these thoughts. I get jealous. Jealous that you will meet someone else when you didnt have time for me. The thought deeply saddens me. I can't write anymore. It hurts to much. Way too much. I can't go on like this. I'm slowly melting inside.