Letting Go
Well amazingly enough, I accomplished almost everything on my list yesterday! Including stuff I've needed to do for a month. That felt great! Of course, my school's financial aid office hasn't been answering the phone, just putting me on hold & using up my cell minutes, so I sent them a rather unhappy email asking my questions that way. Considering the form was due yesterday, I hope they answer ASAP!
My commission is like minutes from being done... and I don't want to give her up!! I really didn't think this would happen. She wasn't one of these paintings that I dreamed up and have been dying to paint, she was intended for someone else all along... but I love the way she turned out, and while I'm super excited to have her become the logo & face of my client's business, I want to go "Whaaaaaa! She's mine!" Lol. I heard somewhere that paintings are like our babies, hard to give up... and I totally agree! I'm trying to comfort myself with the fact I have a few "babies" waiting in the wings to be finished and released... and plenty new ones that need to be started!!
I can't believe it's already Thursday... I'm so desperate for the doctor to fix me that I keep forgetting it's my birthday on Monday, and am going "I can't wait to go to the doctor's on Monday!" instead. Oops. At the same time, I'm worried that while the medicine will fix my sleeping problem, fatigue, depression, & other issues, it may change who I am... As always, Amy Lee says it the best:
I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me
Lithium
Don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium
Don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium
I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Don't want to let it
Lead me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go...
My commission is like minutes from being done... and I don't want to give her up!! I really didn't think this would happen. She wasn't one of these paintings that I dreamed up and have been dying to paint, she was intended for someone else all along... but I love the way she turned out, and while I'm super excited to have her become the logo & face of my client's business, I want to go "Whaaaaaa! She's mine!" Lol. I heard somewhere that paintings are like our babies, hard to give up... and I totally agree! I'm trying to comfort myself with the fact I have a few "babies" waiting in the wings to be finished and released... and plenty new ones that need to be started!!
I can't believe it's already Thursday... I'm so desperate for the doctor to fix me that I keep forgetting it's my birthday on Monday, and am going "I can't wait to go to the doctor's on Monday!" instead. Oops. At the same time, I'm worried that while the medicine will fix my sleeping problem, fatigue, depression, & other issues, it may change who I am... As always, Amy Lee says it the best:
I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me
Lithium
Don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium
Don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium
I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Don't want to let it
Lead me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go...