Apr 05, 2005 03:24
Ran into a longtime friend yesterday whom is someone considered family to me first words "Where have you been?" and yes I am an ass for not updating the people closest to me if I am still alive. I havent gone out in my male mode in a long time and I came to that fact when I noticed the beer cans I had on my desk all had lipstick stains on them. This lil alter ego I have has not overlaped my male side if you were wondering its just that I havent been driven to do the things I did before wasting 2 years of my life cause of someone. Right now I am optimistic so its just a few more steps to being carefree again despite the grey clouds on my head I fully intend not to burden my life with regret,depression and useless memories. I constantly encourage people close to me to find happiness I might as well follow my own damn words cause I want to be too and it was a road I once was and I liked myself once.
Getting up
-Meli-