Havent written in awhile.....
Things have been so crazy that i cannot even remember the last time i wrote in livejournal. I wish i had more time or energy to write. Sometimes I want to but I just dont know what to say or put things into words.
School is going, slowly going, lots of papers and not so much motivation on my part and its only piling up even more. I cant believe its Junior Year and that bodes for so much more of what is going on for me right now. I dont know what I want to do with my life anymore, i thought i had it all planned out sort of but now I am beginning to question it all. Plus there is so much that I have to get done or want to experience. Been trying to think about things while trying to keep my sanity. Things at times seem out of control. I have to worry about graduate school and what I want to focus on, all this time ive thought that i want it to be psychology, but ive now realized how much i love and have gotten out of my experience in student affairs aka residential life and perhaps i want to go into higher education in graduate school. too many decisions, how can i know what i want to do for the rest of my life?
Then there is spring semester, im not going abroad, so therefore I am trying to do birthright to israel over winter break but i dont think that is going to happen becuase the programs are full, most of them. Im trying to line up an internship for spring semester in psychology/counseling, so ive been sending my resume and cover letters galore out.
Then i am trying to figure out what I want to do this summer in terms of work, i want to get away, travel but make money. I am looking into being on staff on a teen tour, maybe an internship of being an RA at a sumemr program and applying to work at Longacre....too many applications and decisions, i just want to be away from home!
So its official, im going to michigan with my dad for thanksgiving, should be interesting, i dunno.
I wish i had a group of friends that I could just go and travel with, have fun,plan as we go, etc. but i dont....why cant i find those people, i just want to see the world, have some fun, not think about things for awhile...anyone want to come? lol
My love life blows....as usual...it only bothers me sometimes, i am okay with being single most of the time, i dont have the time for a relationship right now, but there are those moments when i want it, when i feel like i cant find the right person, when i feel that there is no one out there for me to date or be with, treat me right or love me. why do i feel this way?
well i feel like i could write forever, but i probably shouldnt.
supposed to go to maryland on saturday to sunday to see some of sarah's friends, i hope that is fun and not a waste of my time and driving. I want to see Brian but i think he is goign to Wildwood this weekend, i dunno, i dont know if he even wants to see me, sometimes i feel its all talk....
School is going, slowly going, lots of papers and not so much motivation on my part and its only piling up even more. I cant believe its Junior Year and that bodes for so much more of what is going on for me right now. I dont know what I want to do with my life anymore, i thought i had it all planned out sort of but now I am beginning to question it all. Plus there is so much that I have to get done or want to experience. Been trying to think about things while trying to keep my sanity. Things at times seem out of control. I have to worry about graduate school and what I want to focus on, all this time ive thought that i want it to be psychology, but ive now realized how much i love and have gotten out of my experience in student affairs aka residential life and perhaps i want to go into higher education in graduate school. too many decisions, how can i know what i want to do for the rest of my life?
Then there is spring semester, im not going abroad, so therefore I am trying to do birthright to israel over winter break but i dont think that is going to happen becuase the programs are full, most of them. Im trying to line up an internship for spring semester in psychology/counseling, so ive been sending my resume and cover letters galore out.
Then i am trying to figure out what I want to do this summer in terms of work, i want to get away, travel but make money. I am looking into being on staff on a teen tour, maybe an internship of being an RA at a sumemr program and applying to work at Longacre....too many applications and decisions, i just want to be away from home!
So its official, im going to michigan with my dad for thanksgiving, should be interesting, i dunno.
I wish i had a group of friends that I could just go and travel with, have fun,plan as we go, etc. but i dont....why cant i find those people, i just want to see the world, have some fun, not think about things for awhile...anyone want to come? lol
My love life blows....as usual...it only bothers me sometimes, i am okay with being single most of the time, i dont have the time for a relationship right now, but there are those moments when i want it, when i feel like i cant find the right person, when i feel that there is no one out there for me to date or be with, treat me right or love me. why do i feel this way?
well i feel like i could write forever, but i probably shouldnt.
supposed to go to maryland on saturday to sunday to see some of sarah's friends, i hope that is fun and not a waste of my time and driving. I want to see Brian but i think he is goign to Wildwood this weekend, i dunno, i dont know if he even wants to see me, sometimes i feel its all talk....