Jul 14, 2008 20:11
everytime i go out to a queer dance party/night i leave feeling like shit.
i end up feeling manically like i want to chop off my hair, throw out my dresses, and stop being femme.
i am so, so, so sick of these hierarchies. i hate that i participate in them. i hate that we all do.
it makes me want to live under a rock. or be part of something that has these hierarchies but doesn't pretend these hierarchies don't exist.
i feel frustrated that i'm not moving. i don't totally hate philly, but i still just feel done with it a lot of the time. maybe i can set a time limit for myself and in the next year or so find somewhere else that might be good to try out.
i think i need to start having weekly one-on-one hangs with my friends.
also, i really want the women's therapy center to call me back for counseling intake interview stuff.
also, i miss molly and skip.