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im gonna go insane...seriously this damn dorm is an insane asylum to me.
this fucking place is holding me back from more important things...since now im starting to stress out about my future such as transferring all my loans, scheduling classes, and figuring out what i want to do in my life. i feel so lost right now cuz i have no guidence at all. i dont know where to begin with scheduling classes, and im probably gonna get shitty pick cuz ive waited so long to schedule them...but there was nothing i could really do about it...there was no way to schedule them being 8 hours away. doesnt help that my parents are on my case again about passing everything which very well will not happen at the rate im going. doesnt help that im just litterally going insane in this jail of mine. finals are this coming week and ive barely studied but its cuz i just fuck around most of the time..i have no modivation to do well. then i feel guilty when i see that everyone's studying. cuz they want to do this and i dont. then i feel like im throwing away the oppurtunity of a lifetime...being a pharmacist and being financially well for the rest of my life...but then again, i really dont want to do this. i would very well not make it. as it is i need to go on antidepressant medication as soon as i get home. its gonna very well take a good portion of the summer to recoperate.
im so worried about my future that i just want to deal with it now but these damn finals are keeping me away from it.....
once again, why the fuck am i spilling in here...its not like im gonna get any feedback anyway.....
this fucking place is holding me back from more important things...since now im starting to stress out about my future such as transferring all my loans, scheduling classes, and figuring out what i want to do in my life. i feel so lost right now cuz i have no guidence at all. i dont know where to begin with scheduling classes, and im probably gonna get shitty pick cuz ive waited so long to schedule them...but there was nothing i could really do about it...there was no way to schedule them being 8 hours away. doesnt help that my parents are on my case again about passing everything which very well will not happen at the rate im going. doesnt help that im just litterally going insane in this jail of mine. finals are this coming week and ive barely studied but its cuz i just fuck around most of the time..i have no modivation to do well. then i feel guilty when i see that everyone's studying. cuz they want to do this and i dont. then i feel like im throwing away the oppurtunity of a lifetime...being a pharmacist and being financially well for the rest of my life...but then again, i really dont want to do this. i would very well not make it. as it is i need to go on antidepressant medication as soon as i get home. its gonna very well take a good portion of the summer to recoperate.
im so worried about my future that i just want to deal with it now but these damn finals are keeping me away from it.....
once again, why the fuck am i spilling in here...its not like im gonna get any feedback anyway.....