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im gonna need some serious encouragement for fear that i wont make it out of this next week at acp alive. 2 tests this week, 2 more papers due, and then 5 finals next week....i just want to be apathetic towards everything-the acedemics, the people, myself...but my nature is to have emotion but since the only emotions flowing through me are anger, frusteration and sadness, it would be better to be apathetic. i have gotten so pissed off and upset with life that it has changed me completely around as a person. i hope that i come back around once i leave. but until then, without support, that im not feeling right now i am gonna be one misrable person and you'll be able to tell. all i know is that i feel so alone here in albany and i feel that the ppl that truly support me are 7 hours + away. In albany and the general acp area......i am completely alone.
I would rather work a 12 hour shift at giant eagle then go through this.
"Master of Puppets I'm pulling your strings
twisting your mind and smashing your dreams
Blinded by me, you can't see a thing
Just call my name, `cause I'll hear you scream
Master
Master"