Spatters on the Floor
There isn't much I can say to describe my life. Or the very few people around me. This seems to be a summer like last. The one where I spend so much time with my mother that it isn't even humanly possible. The times when books flew out the window I was reading them so fast. I wish I could read them right now, but for some reason, I have issues. I can't read.
I haven't finished a book since the Cleopatra one I read. Which was very good. Very sexy, everything I needed at that time. I learned from Cleopatara. she slept with men as a political deal. But after time, she found that she was falling in love with them. That she wanted them, and that missing them was an option for her personal life...but not for her political life. That's how it always is for women. We have to guard ourselves just right from men, so that we don't get too hurt. I'm constantly hurt, watching people in love. Wondering: Why can't that be me? Don't we all have those moments though? I certianly do. i hate it when my life is at a good speed, heading where it needs to go, and all of a sudden someone in my small group of friends comes up to me and goes, "So...guess what? I have a boyfriend!" or girlfriend for that matter.
it's weird, but it's something that I suppose everybody experiences. L.O.V.E. by Michael Buble always makes me feel like shit.
Yet....when I'm happy i lsiten tot it? I don't know...its' weird.
I haven't finished a book since the Cleopatra one I read. Which was very good. Very sexy, everything I needed at that time. I learned from Cleopatara. she slept with men as a political deal. But after time, she found that she was falling in love with them. That she wanted them, and that missing them was an option for her personal life...but not for her political life. That's how it always is for women. We have to guard ourselves just right from men, so that we don't get too hurt. I'm constantly hurt, watching people in love. Wondering: Why can't that be me? Don't we all have those moments though? I certianly do. i hate it when my life is at a good speed, heading where it needs to go, and all of a sudden someone in my small group of friends comes up to me and goes, "So...guess what? I have a boyfriend!" or girlfriend for that matter.
it's weird, but it's something that I suppose everybody experiences. L.O.V.E. by Michael Buble always makes me feel like shit.
Yet....when I'm happy i lsiten tot it? I don't know...its' weird.