meme: fandom boyfriends running away with your heart
I've been meaning to do this for ages, so here we go~
Nobody Makes Me Feel the Way You Do
The "If your fandoms were boyfriends/that-one-guy-you-slept-with" meme!
NB: Er, I don't know if I have to make this qualification but just in case - none of these are (consciously) based on real relationships I had. These are all very much my relationships with fandom described as if a relationship with a Real Boy! And so on.
01. GUNDAM WING
GW was the one I started 'dating' before I even knew what dating was, the one who introduced me to the messy world of relationships and probably gave me a lot of misconeptions and wrongheaded ideas about how things should work. Our "relationship" (if that's what you could call it) was short-lived and yet has had such a lasting impact on me. I can never forget GW. It's been ages since we've seen each other but I still think about him with fondness, probably colored by nostalgia. How I feel about GW now is probably more idealized than I ever felt at the time but, well, it's all right. It's not like I'm about to hook up with him again.
02. PRINCE OF TENNIS
PoT was the first boyfriend, the one where we were both young and stupid and in those first flushes of what we thought was love. The one I will never totally forget, the one I will always look back on with some sort of fondness, even if I shake my head at how silly we were and at all the little things that tripped us up. We drifted apart when we realized we were growing in different directions, that this wasn't what either of us wanted, but despite the occasional moment of despairing embarrassment, there are no bad feelings. We don't really talk anymore or stay in touch, but that's okay.
03. JPOP
Jpop was the rebound fling, fast and hard and full of bad decisions. The one who introduced me to a crowd of people who made my head whirl, whom I still haven't quite forgotten to this day, even if we're no longer in touch like we used to be. Jpop's the one who has, to my surprise, ended up back in my life, seeing one (or some?) of my friends, whom I can smile and nod at when we pass each other, but whom I don't really go out of my way to talk to or hang out with. As long as he's good to my friend(s), I'm glad they're happy.
04. OURAN KOKO HOST CLUB
Oh god, Ouran - Ouran was the fantastic and fun summer fling, the one who made me laugh and me happy and who leaves me with good memories and good feelings. The one who still makes me smile whenever we run into each other, even though it's rare nowadays; the one I still think about hooking back up with sometimes, just because we were good together. It could never be anything serious or long-term but I think we're both okay with that. Oh Ouran, you still make me happy.
05. HIKARU NO GO
Hikago is my one true love. Hikago is the one I will never let go, the one I could never stop loving. The one who will always be in my life, even when we aren't talking every day or even seeing each other that frequently; the one who knows he'll always be number one in my heart no matter who else I see. We may never end up with each other, we may have different interests and different passions, but Hikago's the one who will always be in my life, always important to me, no matter where we end up. The one where we can see other people and be happy for each other but still have this connection, something like friendship but even deeper. Oh Hikago, you are so beautiful to me. ♥
06. HARRY POTTER
HP is the one I had a crush on in the beginning, the super popular one I wanted to hang out with and get to know. HP is the one everyone knew, the one people loved or hated, the one who was polarizing and yet so comfortable in being himself. The one I realized I couldn't ever have a romantic relationship with, but who has become something like a best friend, the one I can always go back to and talk to when life (and other boyfriends) are shitty, who will always be there for me. HP is the one I think about most during the holidays and the one who entertains me by being either totally charming or totally awful, but always there. HP is anther one who will always be in my life because I'm never letting this go.
07. KPOP
Oh god, kpop, kpop is the one I had such a long and complicated relationship with. Kpop is the one who had 2 1/2 years of my life before we realized we weren't good for each other, that we were never truly suited for each other. It was a bitter break-up, as they tend to be, but enough time has passed that I can look back at the good times and be at peace. We made each other so mad but we made each other happy too: there was love there. Kpop's the one who taught me a lot about myself and who gave me some of the best memories of my life, even though in the end we realized we weren't well-matched and it was better to just end things. I think I've finally reached the point where we can be friends, albeit friends who often disagree about things.
08. SUPERNATURAL
SPN and I are fuck-buddies, the end. We will never be able to have any sort of emotional engagement or deeper relationship - it is all about the dirtybadwrong sex, all about staying on the superficial end of things. It works out better for both of us, especially as SPN's the one who is continually horrible to women and who continually gets into relationship drama with other people that I roll my eyes to hear. This is just about the sex, thanks.
09. INCEPTION
Inception is the popular new guy that everyone fawned over and that I totally fell head over heels for. We had a whirlwind romance that totally swept me off my feet only to dump me on my ass, three months later, when I woke up from the happy honeymoon daze to realize that I was in an emotionally abusive relationship. Inception's the one that fucked me up good, real fast, and the one I'm awkward with now because we have a lot of mutual friends-- I don't begrudge him their friendship because he's a good guy, charming and fun, but who was just not good for me, personally. So now I'm wary because I still like him and I know it, but I don't trust myself to be capable of being friends with him just yet without further fucking myself up. It's complicated.
10. DCU (Smallville, Teen Titans, Batman, etc.)
DCU's the one my friends have been trying to introduce me to for ages but whom I was never interested in until I ran into him on my own - now the interest has sparked and I'm getting to know him better. We moved pretty fast, got to the sex before the rest of the relationship, but so far I'm still hooked. We're probably in the honeymoon phase too, but it helps that I have friends I trust who know him and have more or less vetted him. And damn but does he have such a complex and interesting history. I doubt it's true love or for forever, but for now I'm content to just keep seeing him and seeing where it goes.
And this is not touching on all my other fandoms: STXI, Merlin, AI8, Bruno & Boots, every other anime/manga fandom I've been in. They are all still friends that I have varying levels of relationships with, some closer than others, some I go to for cuddles, some I go to for laughs, some I go to for smart conversations, and some I just like to look at or who come up in conversation with other people. ;) P.S. Football doesn't count as a fandom, I've decided, because I don't do fandomy things for it, in the end. I just yell at my TV/computer like every other sport I pay attention to.
Making this list and looking back over it has made me realize just how heavy my involvement has been in male-centric fandoms. That is, fandoms where the canon is dominated by male characters (or, er, people in the case of jpop and kpop). I won't try to psychoanalyze myself here or try to justify this somehow (do I have to justify this? a curious thought), but it is definitely something interesting to me and that will make me think. Obviously I do love girls and female characters but I never seem to get as obsessive-interested or committed to them the way I do with male characters or relationships. Hmm.
Anyway, this meme was mostly for fun! And also to vaguely (very vague, I know) explain why I am not so much active in Inception fandom for the moment. Always feel free to talk to me about Tom Hardy though, as I am stupid ridiculous over him, as I'm sure you've all figured out by now.
This post is so me-centric. @_@ Well, let's make this interactive or something. Name any of these fandoms (or any other one you know I'm in/have been in) and I'll name you:
(1) my favorite character
(2) my OTP
(3) my least favorite character
(4) my least favorite pairing
(5) one random thing I love about the fandom/show/group/etc
(6) an unpopular fandom opinion
Let's 五! :D
Yes that was terrible but it is not my fault, Hikago did it first.
Nobody Makes Me Feel the Way You Do
The "If your fandoms were boyfriends/that-one-guy-you-slept-with" meme!
NB: Er, I don't know if I have to make this qualification but just in case - none of these are (consciously) based on real relationships I had. These are all very much my relationships with fandom described as if a relationship with a Real Boy! And so on.
01. GUNDAM WING
GW was the one I started 'dating' before I even knew what dating was, the one who introduced me to the messy world of relationships and probably gave me a lot of misconeptions and wrongheaded ideas about how things should work. Our "relationship" (if that's what you could call it) was short-lived and yet has had such a lasting impact on me. I can never forget GW. It's been ages since we've seen each other but I still think about him with fondness, probably colored by nostalgia. How I feel about GW now is probably more idealized than I ever felt at the time but, well, it's all right. It's not like I'm about to hook up with him again.
02. PRINCE OF TENNIS
PoT was the first boyfriend, the one where we were both young and stupid and in those first flushes of what we thought was love. The one I will never totally forget, the one I will always look back on with some sort of fondness, even if I shake my head at how silly we were and at all the little things that tripped us up. We drifted apart when we realized we were growing in different directions, that this wasn't what either of us wanted, but despite the occasional moment of despairing embarrassment, there are no bad feelings. We don't really talk anymore or stay in touch, but that's okay.
03. JPOP
Jpop was the rebound fling, fast and hard and full of bad decisions. The one who introduced me to a crowd of people who made my head whirl, whom I still haven't quite forgotten to this day, even if we're no longer in touch like we used to be. Jpop's the one who has, to my surprise, ended up back in my life, seeing one (or some?) of my friends, whom I can smile and nod at when we pass each other, but whom I don't really go out of my way to talk to or hang out with. As long as he's good to my friend(s), I'm glad they're happy.
04. OURAN KOKO HOST CLUB
Oh god, Ouran - Ouran was the fantastic and fun summer fling, the one who made me laugh and me happy and who leaves me with good memories and good feelings. The one who still makes me smile whenever we run into each other, even though it's rare nowadays; the one I still think about hooking back up with sometimes, just because we were good together. It could never be anything serious or long-term but I think we're both okay with that. Oh Ouran, you still make me happy.
05. HIKARU NO GO
Hikago is my one true love. Hikago is the one I will never let go, the one I could never stop loving. The one who will always be in my life, even when we aren't talking every day or even seeing each other that frequently; the one who knows he'll always be number one in my heart no matter who else I see. We may never end up with each other, we may have different interests and different passions, but Hikago's the one who will always be in my life, always important to me, no matter where we end up. The one where we can see other people and be happy for each other but still have this connection, something like friendship but even deeper. Oh Hikago, you are so beautiful to me. ♥
06. HARRY POTTER
HP is the one I had a crush on in the beginning, the super popular one I wanted to hang out with and get to know. HP is the one everyone knew, the one people loved or hated, the one who was polarizing and yet so comfortable in being himself. The one I realized I couldn't ever have a romantic relationship with, but who has become something like a best friend, the one I can always go back to and talk to when life (and other boyfriends) are shitty, who will always be there for me. HP is the one I think about most during the holidays and the one who entertains me by being either totally charming or totally awful, but always there. HP is anther one who will always be in my life because I'm never letting this go.
07. KPOP
Oh god, kpop, kpop is the one I had such a long and complicated relationship with. Kpop is the one who had 2 1/2 years of my life before we realized we weren't good for each other, that we were never truly suited for each other. It was a bitter break-up, as they tend to be, but enough time has passed that I can look back at the good times and be at peace. We made each other so mad but we made each other happy too: there was love there. Kpop's the one who taught me a lot about myself and who gave me some of the best memories of my life, even though in the end we realized we weren't well-matched and it was better to just end things. I think I've finally reached the point where we can be friends, albeit friends who often disagree about things.
08. SUPERNATURAL
SPN and I are fuck-buddies, the end. We will never be able to have any sort of emotional engagement or deeper relationship - it is all about the dirtybadwrong sex, all about staying on the superficial end of things. It works out better for both of us, especially as SPN's the one who is continually horrible to women and who continually gets into relationship drama with other people that I roll my eyes to hear. This is just about the sex, thanks.
09. INCEPTION
Inception is the popular new guy that everyone fawned over and that I totally fell head over heels for. We had a whirlwind romance that totally swept me off my feet only to dump me on my ass, three months later, when I woke up from the happy honeymoon daze to realize that I was in an emotionally abusive relationship. Inception's the one that fucked me up good, real fast, and the one I'm awkward with now because we have a lot of mutual friends-- I don't begrudge him their friendship because he's a good guy, charming and fun, but who was just not good for me, personally. So now I'm wary because I still like him and I know it, but I don't trust myself to be capable of being friends with him just yet without further fucking myself up. It's complicated.
10. DCU (Smallville, Teen Titans, Batman, etc.)
DCU's the one my friends have been trying to introduce me to for ages but whom I was never interested in until I ran into him on my own - now the interest has sparked and I'm getting to know him better. We moved pretty fast, got to the sex before the rest of the relationship, but so far I'm still hooked. We're probably in the honeymoon phase too, but it helps that I have friends I trust who know him and have more or less vetted him. And damn but does he have such a complex and interesting history. I doubt it's true love or for forever, but for now I'm content to just keep seeing him and seeing where it goes.
And this is not touching on all my other fandoms: STXI, Merlin, AI8, Bruno & Boots, every other anime/manga fandom I've been in. They are all still friends that I have varying levels of relationships with, some closer than others, some I go to for cuddles, some I go to for laughs, some I go to for smart conversations, and some I just like to look at or who come up in conversation with other people. ;) P.S. Football doesn't count as a fandom, I've decided, because I don't do fandomy things for it, in the end. I just yell at my TV/computer like every other sport I pay attention to.
Making this list and looking back over it has made me realize just how heavy my involvement has been in male-centric fandoms. That is, fandoms where the canon is dominated by male characters (or, er, people in the case of jpop and kpop). I won't try to psychoanalyze myself here or try to justify this somehow (do I have to justify this? a curious thought), but it is definitely something interesting to me and that will make me think. Obviously I do love girls and female characters but I never seem to get as obsessive-interested or committed to them the way I do with male characters or relationships. Hmm.
Anyway, this meme was mostly for fun! And also to vaguely (very vague, I know) explain why I am not so much active in Inception fandom for the moment. Always feel free to talk to me about Tom Hardy though, as I am stupid ridiculous over him, as I'm sure you've all figured out by now.
This post is so me-centric. @_@ Well, let's make this interactive or something. Name any of these fandoms (or any other one you know I'm in/have been in) and I'll name you:
(1) my favorite character
(2) my OTP
(3) my least favorite character
(4) my least favorite pairing
(5) one random thing I love about the fandom/show/group/etc
(6) an unpopular fandom opinion
Let's 五! :D
Yes that was terrible but it is not my fault, Hikago did it first.