Oh Life...Part VI
I didn’t actually accept the position until a week later because I thought other people would get back to me before then. But since they did not, I wasn’t going to wait any longer and I accepted. Basically, I will be co-leading a group of 4 in trail construction and maintenance in the Trout Lake region of Washington. It is almost like Americorps NCCC and is an Americorps based program with all of the benefits. I would be making about $600 a month which I can pocket. Its a 10 month program and 3 out of the 10 months is dedicated to training. That is an over-glorified CTI, blahhh and I am sure I will be re-learning a lot of things I learned in Americorps. However, I almost glad that training is 3 months. I will get to spend time getting to know the other team leaders and that is 3 months I don’t have to spend with my team. Not to say that I am not excited about leading a team because I am! I just don’t enjoy performing trail maintenance all that much. I like using the chainsaw, brushing, and falling tress but I don’t like making rock walls or widening trails. Why did I apply then? I know it will be an awesome experience, an experience no job would take me. I want to apply to graduate school and will spend all of my free time trying to study for the GRE and really figure out where I want to go and what program I want to apply to. I would rather do this than try and pay rent, for food, etc. It will be relatively stress-free and graduate school is my ultimate goal. The only thing I am upset about is that I will have to leave K. I only get 5 days off the entire year and I will not be able to see her during either of our birthdays. :( I will miss her. I told her (wasted) that I wanted to try and be together. I think we both know that staying together is not realistic. I also think I applied to other states (besides the fact that I can’t find a decent job here) is because I know that we have to break up. It is a lot easier going away than breaking up. I don’t mind being together out her and being out here, but I can’t be in a homosexual relationship for too long. My parents are going to wonder soon enough (if they already don’t) and I know I would be the talk of the family for years to come. If she is the one for me and if I can handle the stress of being in this type of relationship than I will do it later in life. I want to explore and have fun with all sorts of people, I am not ready to settle down yet. But god I will miss her. She has done so many things for me and she really is the most talented and most amazing person I have met. I won’t miss our fights though :)
Well, that pretty much sums up my life in the past 4 months. It has been a wild roller coaster ride and I have learned many valuable lessons. For example, I will never never not have a plan again, I understand what it would take to pay rent, food, bills, I understand how to write resumes and cover letters, I understand that I am not special and that a college education does not guarantee you anything...
I understand that I never ever want to go through this ordeal again. One lesson is enough!
Well, that pretty much sums up my life in the past 4 months. It has been a wild roller coaster ride and I have learned many valuable lessons. For example, I will never never not have a plan again, I understand what it would take to pay rent, food, bills, I understand how to write resumes and cover letters, I understand that I am not special and that a college education does not guarantee you anything...
I understand that I never ever want to go through this ordeal again. One lesson is enough!