... when you knew that we different. completely...
i took an e-mode's online iq test; my iq is higher than it was two years ago. two years ago, my iq was 118. today, it's 127. the follow-up report it sent to me was kinda confusing. it tells me that i'm creative and that i have exceptional verbal skills. i don't know how the test figure that one out. in actuality, my verbal skills are weak and in need of some improving.
still... me? smart? hopefully, this is some sort of joke. or something.
okay, so i got my hopes up for nothing; i didn't make it past round one of that gaian beauty pageant. i wouldn't have minded so much if it weren't for jared and his cheering for another girl. i was somewhat hurt that i lost in the first round [ alright, i won't lie; at first i didn't care, but when it came to the preparation for the first round and getting caught up in the excitement of it all, let's just say i began to care ], and it felt like jared didn't care. i felt like i had no support from him, and it felt like all his attention was on that keina girl.
i got somewhat mad, depressed and upset that he was cheering more for her than he did for me. after all, when your boyfriend says -another girl- -should- win... well, that's like a hit slightly below the hips. and the fact that he didn't even seem to care when i lost only worsened the blow. the only thing that kept me from disappearing for a while was the encouraging words of jamie. he went as far as to say that it was a sacriledge that i didn't win. yep, he's a sweetheart, alright.
yea, yea... i know what you're thinking, "oh, you lost an online contest, big fucking deal!" well, i know that, but still... you lose in the first round, i doubt your first reaction would be one of happiness; you don't pay to lose. oh well. at least i learned what not to do for the next time; refrain from talking about anything beyond go-gaia, and wear catears, not the halo.
at least i got a friendly pm from someone saying that he thought my avatar looked cool. that perked me right the fuck up.
i also got to help miss chiichan. some guy said he'd pay a thousand gold for a commission from her. when it came time to pay up, he only gave her a hockey mask. being very upset about it, a friend of hers posted something about it, and i did what i could to bring this guy to the kind of justice he deserved. he was placed on two blacklists, and then pressured into paying chiichan. hopefully, he's learned his lession and will think twice before attempting something like that ever again.
no huge change in my wardrobe this week; i have a few new items i got from jen because she chose to leave go-gaia. i also bought myself a tie, blue beanie and fresh grass skirt. now that i have the fresh one, i'll ditch the dried, since they're so trite. i also wanna ditch the hockey mask, black biker helmet and mummy mask, since i'll never wear those.
after all, i don't think jared would want his angel to dress like a psycho.
i can't wait for the new items update, though. from what i hear, it's supposed to be here "soon". i'm not expecting it too soon, but i look forward to seeing what new items the next update has to offer. i hope that there'll be some sort of wings; i'd love to have a set of wings to kinda reflect the "jared's little angel" title i've been given. the halo kinda works for that. i'd also like to be able to wear my deluxe catears with my cowboy hat and halo.
i find that i've been stumbling across the dumbest people ever in that game. there was one girl asking for the money to buy a headband, and she snapped at the first person to call her a beggar. of course, people were all over her once she snapped. she, then, blamed her personal problems for her snapping. that, of course, is when the shit hit the fan. things escalated, and then died.
i made a few friends in that thread. i even ended up giving brahms a pair of my panties; he even claimed me.
i honestly don't know why people do that; use real-life personal problems as an excuse to misbehave in a game somewhere in cyberspace. real life is real life, fantasy is fantasy. there is no reason why these two should ever have to be used to excuse bad behavior. if you're an asshole, you're an asshole -usually- by choice. if you've had a hard life... well, suck it up; online forums are usually not pity parades, and not a place to showcase the happenings in your real life. learn the difference between fantasy and reality. thank you.
that, of course was when brenda, drunker than i've ever seen anyone, decided to come and talk to me. it's not that i don't like her, it's that i'm not too fond of talking to drunk people.
i got wind of this "blaster" virus. of course, being as paranoid as i am, i immediately spent an hour searching for and installing the appropriate patch to protect my system. dad, of course, wanted his system patched, too. i patched his system, but discovered another problem; he had a different virus: worm_spybot.gen. this virus had me almost completely baffled; it wouldn't let me run the registry editor to remove the registry values inserted by the virus, nor would it allow me to run the task manager, not allowing me to terminate the appropriate process. i gave up, but on friday, i decided that i was bored enough to try this again. i downloaded reghance and a third-party process viewer. i killed the process instance, registry keys and dropped files.
i downloaded something i think that dad -really- needs; avg anti-virus. since dad can't be trusted to watch his surfing and computer habits, he has to have a program to do it for him. the only thing that i'll teach him how to do is to update the virus definitions and preach the importance of keeping things up-to-date; it's up to him after that to keep the definitions updated. after all, in a week, i'll be in new brunswick, i won't be able to do this while i'm seven hours away from home, and if i can't teach anyone to protect their systems, then everyone's system is as good as fucked.
sometimes i hate being the only one who knows well enough to look after my computer. when i leave, i take probably the most computer knowledge with me.
i also cleaned up the start menu's programs, removing a startup problem and cleaning out some programs that dad doesn't use. i also did a scandisk and defrag. dad's computer -should- be in tip-top shape if looked-after from now on. if he keeps his definitions up to date, does regular system maintenance, then there really shouldn't be that much of a problem. however, when relying on someone as braindead as my dad, one can't expect too much.
dad had also wanted to take me out to the edge that night. i declined the offer because i hate bars; i don't drink, i don't like drunk people, and i sure as hell won't feel secure there, even if dad and reggie are the bouncers. i don't wanna take that chance. besides, what the hell was i going to do in a bar for seven hours? enjoy the atmosphere? dad suggested listening to music and watching the boys. for one, i can listen to music at home [ and it's guaranteed to be music i like ], and two... well, let's just say the only boy i'm interested in watching won't be there.
so my answer was no, and i didn't go. i did -nothing- on the night of my nineteenth birthday. nobody noticed, and i was fine with it. as long as nobody makes a big deal about my birthday, i'm happy. i mean, it's only my birthday, right~? nothing special at all.
i didn't get any birthday presents 'till one day after my birthday. the first thing i got was a beautiful rend from nezumi. heh... sometimes i wonder about that boy; i honestly didn't know how much i meant to him, and how much i inspired him. i never thought i'd have that kind of influence on anyone. even though i've known about it for a while, the concept is still hard to grasp.
i did get a gift from dad after that, tho. i got two pieces of jewlery for the piercing below my lip; one green, one blue. it was something i think i've needed for a while now. the standard blue-jeweled stud was getting old; i needed something new for it, and i was welcome to any change, minus spikes; those're ugly.
i also decided to get a little sneeky and install a keylogger onto my computer. i know it's wrong of me to do this, but hell... why the fuck not? jen's been causing a little bit of trouble, and i want to make sure that what she's doing is kosher. i'll probably install the same program on dad's computer, because he's been known to get into trouble, too. i'm a little scared of what i'll find out, though. however, if i can get to the bottom of the virus problems, i can eliminate the weed from the root.
so, i posted the lineart of the public-friendly picture of my go-gaia avatar, and two people responded; the first being mizzy, who did a wonderfully bright and cheery version of it. the second of the respondants was tass, who again, did a fucking gorgeous job on colouring my art. it baffles me as to why he likes my art as much as he does, but i'm very honored and very happy that he does. i adore his art so much, and it's just a thrill to know the art adoration is mutual.
i still have yet to finish that pic i start of casey for him. i want to get it finished this week, if i could. after all, i want it finished as soon as possible because tass has been patient enough with me. after casey is finished, and after i finish pics for natashi, laguna and kei, i'll start working on a pic of trenton. it won't be like any other pic... oh, nonono... i'll have this be an -awesome-. because i think tass deserves it for being such a sweetheart to me.
i finished that pic i started for amanda brown. the only part of that pic i'm not at all satisfied with is the neck area... it needs a lot of work, but it's just too bad i was too eager to have it finished~ i -do- happen to like how the clothing and hair turned out... and the colouring on the facial area. the shoes look kinda neat, too.
amanda liked it, so -that- was the most important part.
i also got inspired by one of the people i comissioned on go-gaia. i commissioned a girl by the name of hokori to do an avatar edit of my avatar as devil hunter yohko. i loved the edit, but to me... it didn't look right; the clothing and hair just didn't fit the rest of the avatar. don't get me wrong, i still loved it and i still think it was worth the 250 gold i payed for it... but i wanted to try my hand at editing it myself, and i think the sprite turned out amazingly nice. the only thing i couldn't add was that blasted sword of hers. i might try to do that later on... but i won't guarantee anything. i also might start doing avatar edits for gold... it all depends on how i feel, how rich i want to be and schtuff like that.
but, speaking of devil hunter yohko, i've been downloading episodes. i really missed that anime, but i totally forgot about it. it's my favourite anime of all time. i have episodes 1, 2 & 5 downloaded. i hope to get 3, 4 & 6 downloaded this week so i can package it off and send it to jared as soon as i can.
the last thing i finished this week was the pic i promised i'd colour for minnchan; i was actually honored that she wanted me, of all people to colour it... out of all the amazing colourists who've graced her beautiful works, she chose me. i'm -very- honored to have been the one she picked. i actually had fun colouring it, and i think the colours turned out really nice; better than anticipated, even. the background was a little mish-mashed and last minute, but regardless, i think i did an okay job of colouring it. at least the skin wasn't too dark for her this time.
i'm glad people were impressed with the term i've given to the colouring half of a collaboration. i wish i could say it's a meggy original... however, i think i actually based it on something i heard mike araya say. he might've used it first, but nobody probably paid attention to his usage of the phrase.
... 'cause if not... it's mine. shh... it's a meggy original...
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still... me? smart? hopefully, this is some sort of joke. or something.
okay, so i got my hopes up for nothing; i didn't make it past round one of that gaian beauty pageant. i wouldn't have minded so much if it weren't for jared and his cheering for another girl. i was somewhat hurt that i lost in the first round [ alright, i won't lie; at first i didn't care, but when it came to the preparation for the first round and getting caught up in the excitement of it all, let's just say i began to care ], and it felt like jared didn't care. i felt like i had no support from him, and it felt like all his attention was on that keina girl.
i got somewhat mad, depressed and upset that he was cheering more for her than he did for me. after all, when your boyfriend says -another girl- -should- win... well, that's like a hit slightly below the hips. and the fact that he didn't even seem to care when i lost only worsened the blow. the only thing that kept me from disappearing for a while was the encouraging words of jamie. he went as far as to say that it was a sacriledge that i didn't win. yep, he's a sweetheart, alright.
yea, yea... i know what you're thinking, "oh, you lost an online contest, big fucking deal!" well, i know that, but still... you lose in the first round, i doubt your first reaction would be one of happiness; you don't pay to lose. oh well. at least i learned what not to do for the next time; refrain from talking about anything beyond go-gaia, and wear catears, not the halo.
at least i got a friendly pm from someone saying that he thought my avatar looked cool. that perked me right the fuck up.
i also got to help miss chiichan. some guy said he'd pay a thousand gold for a commission from her. when it came time to pay up, he only gave her a hockey mask. being very upset about it, a friend of hers posted something about it, and i did what i could to bring this guy to the kind of justice he deserved. he was placed on two blacklists, and then pressured into paying chiichan. hopefully, he's learned his lession and will think twice before attempting something like that ever again.
no huge change in my wardrobe this week; i have a few new items i got from jen because she chose to leave go-gaia. i also bought myself a tie, blue beanie and fresh grass skirt. now that i have the fresh one, i'll ditch the dried, since they're so trite. i also wanna ditch the hockey mask, black biker helmet and mummy mask, since i'll never wear those.
after all, i don't think jared would want his angel to dress like a psycho.
i can't wait for the new items update, though. from what i hear, it's supposed to be here "soon". i'm not expecting it too soon, but i look forward to seeing what new items the next update has to offer. i hope that there'll be some sort of wings; i'd love to have a set of wings to kinda reflect the "jared's little angel" title i've been given. the halo kinda works for that. i'd also like to be able to wear my deluxe catears with my cowboy hat and halo.
i find that i've been stumbling across the dumbest people ever in that game. there was one girl asking for the money to buy a headband, and she snapped at the first person to call her a beggar. of course, people were all over her once she snapped. she, then, blamed her personal problems for her snapping. that, of course, is when the shit hit the fan. things escalated, and then died.
i made a few friends in that thread. i even ended up giving brahms a pair of my panties; he even claimed me.
i honestly don't know why people do that; use real-life personal problems as an excuse to misbehave in a game somewhere in cyberspace. real life is real life, fantasy is fantasy. there is no reason why these two should ever have to be used to excuse bad behavior. if you're an asshole, you're an asshole -usually- by choice. if you've had a hard life... well, suck it up; online forums are usually not pity parades, and not a place to showcase the happenings in your real life. learn the difference between fantasy and reality. thank you.
that, of course was when brenda, drunker than i've ever seen anyone, decided to come and talk to me. it's not that i don't like her, it's that i'm not too fond of talking to drunk people.
i got wind of this "blaster" virus. of course, being as paranoid as i am, i immediately spent an hour searching for and installing the appropriate patch to protect my system. dad, of course, wanted his system patched, too. i patched his system, but discovered another problem; he had a different virus: worm_spybot.gen. this virus had me almost completely baffled; it wouldn't let me run the registry editor to remove the registry values inserted by the virus, nor would it allow me to run the task manager, not allowing me to terminate the appropriate process. i gave up, but on friday, i decided that i was bored enough to try this again. i downloaded reghance and a third-party process viewer. i killed the process instance, registry keys and dropped files.
i downloaded something i think that dad -really- needs; avg anti-virus. since dad can't be trusted to watch his surfing and computer habits, he has to have a program to do it for him. the only thing that i'll teach him how to do is to update the virus definitions and preach the importance of keeping things up-to-date; it's up to him after that to keep the definitions updated. after all, in a week, i'll be in new brunswick, i won't be able to do this while i'm seven hours away from home, and if i can't teach anyone to protect their systems, then everyone's system is as good as fucked.
sometimes i hate being the only one who knows well enough to look after my computer. when i leave, i take probably the most computer knowledge with me.
i also cleaned up the start menu's programs, removing a startup problem and cleaning out some programs that dad doesn't use. i also did a scandisk and defrag. dad's computer -should- be in tip-top shape if looked-after from now on. if he keeps his definitions up to date, does regular system maintenance, then there really shouldn't be that much of a problem. however, when relying on someone as braindead as my dad, one can't expect too much.
dad had also wanted to take me out to the edge that night. i declined the offer because i hate bars; i don't drink, i don't like drunk people, and i sure as hell won't feel secure there, even if dad and reggie are the bouncers. i don't wanna take that chance. besides, what the hell was i going to do in a bar for seven hours? enjoy the atmosphere? dad suggested listening to music and watching the boys. for one, i can listen to music at home [ and it's guaranteed to be music i like ], and two... well, let's just say the only boy i'm interested in watching won't be there.
so my answer was no, and i didn't go. i did -nothing- on the night of my nineteenth birthday. nobody noticed, and i was fine with it. as long as nobody makes a big deal about my birthday, i'm happy. i mean, it's only my birthday, right~? nothing special at all.
i didn't get any birthday presents 'till one day after my birthday. the first thing i got was a beautiful rend from nezumi. heh... sometimes i wonder about that boy; i honestly didn't know how much i meant to him, and how much i inspired him. i never thought i'd have that kind of influence on anyone. even though i've known about it for a while, the concept is still hard to grasp.
i did get a gift from dad after that, tho. i got two pieces of jewlery for the piercing below my lip; one green, one blue. it was something i think i've needed for a while now. the standard blue-jeweled stud was getting old; i needed something new for it, and i was welcome to any change, minus spikes; those're ugly.
i also decided to get a little sneeky and install a keylogger onto my computer. i know it's wrong of me to do this, but hell... why the fuck not? jen's been causing a little bit of trouble, and i want to make sure that what she's doing is kosher. i'll probably install the same program on dad's computer, because he's been known to get into trouble, too. i'm a little scared of what i'll find out, though. however, if i can get to the bottom of the virus problems, i can eliminate the weed from the root.
so, i posted the lineart of the public-friendly picture of my go-gaia avatar, and two people responded; the first being mizzy, who did a wonderfully bright and cheery version of it. the second of the respondants was tass, who again, did a fucking gorgeous job on colouring my art. it baffles me as to why he likes my art as much as he does, but i'm very honored and very happy that he does. i adore his art so much, and it's just a thrill to know the art adoration is mutual.
i still have yet to finish that pic i start of casey for him. i want to get it finished this week, if i could. after all, i want it finished as soon as possible because tass has been patient enough with me. after casey is finished, and after i finish pics for natashi, laguna and kei, i'll start working on a pic of trenton. it won't be like any other pic... oh, nonono... i'll have this be an -awesome-. because i think tass deserves it for being such a sweetheart to me.
i finished that pic i started for amanda brown. the only part of that pic i'm not at all satisfied with is the neck area... it needs a lot of work, but it's just too bad i was too eager to have it finished~ i -do- happen to like how the clothing and hair turned out... and the colouring on the facial area. the shoes look kinda neat, too.
amanda liked it, so -that- was the most important part.
i also got inspired by one of the people i comissioned on go-gaia. i commissioned a girl by the name of hokori to do an avatar edit of my avatar as devil hunter yohko. i loved the edit, but to me... it didn't look right; the clothing and hair just didn't fit the rest of the avatar. don't get me wrong, i still loved it and i still think it was worth the 250 gold i payed for it... but i wanted to try my hand at editing it myself, and i think the sprite turned out amazingly nice. the only thing i couldn't add was that blasted sword of hers. i might try to do that later on... but i won't guarantee anything. i also might start doing avatar edits for gold... it all depends on how i feel, how rich i want to be and schtuff like that.
but, speaking of devil hunter yohko, i've been downloading episodes. i really missed that anime, but i totally forgot about it. it's my favourite anime of all time. i have episodes 1, 2 & 5 downloaded. i hope to get 3, 4 & 6 downloaded this week so i can package it off and send it to jared as soon as i can.
the last thing i finished this week was the pic i promised i'd colour for minnchan; i was actually honored that she wanted me, of all people to colour it... out of all the amazing colourists who've graced her beautiful works, she chose me. i'm -very- honored to have been the one she picked. i actually had fun colouring it, and i think the colours turned out really nice; better than anticipated, even. the background was a little mish-mashed and last minute, but regardless, i think i did an okay job of colouring it. at least the skin wasn't too dark for her this time.
i'm glad people were impressed with the term i've given to the colouring half of a collaboration. i wish i could say it's a meggy original... however, i think i actually based it on something i heard mike araya say. he might've used it first, but nobody probably paid attention to his usage of the phrase.
... 'cause if not... it's mine. shh... it's a meggy original...
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