So long and thanks for all the fish so sad it had to come to this....
Thats a wrap...For me anyway..Tommorow I move into UNH and to me this is great but a little scary
I expected this summer to be great. It fell just short of great, but you know what it wasnt that bad. I spent a lot of time with my friends and they all made me happy. I just wish I could have done more. It's all works fault. I guess that is gonna be how life is for now on though..You know always working and squeezing things in on the weekend.
There were some things I didnt like about this summer though. IT seems like everyone changed. Or maybe I am the only one who changed and everyone has been the same. Who knows really. I saw sides of people that I really dont like..but then again I was surprised by the good in other people that I didnt think was there either.
Maybe the fact that I got a few too many "surprises" this summer is what threw me off. With friends, loves, and family I felt like i was falling through a giant whirlwind.
I know I have made a lot of mistakes. I have hurt a lot of people. There really is no use in trying to justify anything anymore. I did what I did and finally I feel like I can pack this all up and move on. WHat is the point in worrying about the past? IT just gets you caught up on some things and for me I just feel more worse. Dont get me wrong the past should not be forgotten but it doesnt need to be disected either you know. I'm accepting everything that has happened and move on. I'm changing, but it is going to take some time. So i feel like when I actually move in tommorow that will be a start to my new better life. I really hope that I'm right, because it would suck if im wrong...
I feel like today, I'm finally getting closure. Little things like standing under bridges during thunderstorm really do make differences.I love you so much....
sorry If i have been bitchy or moody this summer. I have just had a lot on my mind and i tend to take out my problems on people that i dont mean to.
So anyway I'm really gonna miss my friends. Saying goodbye to Kait was really something hard for me to do. It made me upset, I realized that at this momment goodbyes are far too often..It will be like this forever unless you choose to make that effort and keeping up with everyone. I dont want to lose any of the people that I worked so hard on gettting....
I wont leave u if you wont leave me...I know a lot of my friends are going to UNH but to the close ones that arent Kait, Sarah, Heather, Ashley, and ALanna..I will miss you guys soo much because each of you make me a little bit stronger. i love all of you and I especially love the new edition to my family Colin S.Creevey...awe what a cutie
i think this is all gonna hit me a little bit later...but what i have to say for now is that I am so lucky that I have found friends that care as much as you guys do...and thanks for making my summer the best that it can be under certain circumstances... I love you all
in closing I'll addd a great lovely song
yours truely SMEGMA BAMF
Passed out on the overpass
Sunday best and broken glass
Broken down from the bikes and bars
Suspended like spirits over speeding cars
You and me were kings over the parkway tonight
And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
Singing "everybody wake up(wake up)it's time to get down"
(everybody, everybody wake up its time to get down)
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)
The hell out of this town
Find some conversation
The low fule lights been on for days
It doesn't mean anyhting
I've got another 500 nother 500 miles
before we shut this engine down,
we shut it down
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
Eighteen forever
(your stomachs filled up but you're starved for conversation)
So we can stay like this forever
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
And we'll never miss a party
(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)
cause we keep them going constantly
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
And we'll never have to listen
(your stomachs filled up but you're starved for conversation)
to anyone about anything cause it's all been done
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
and it's all been said
(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
Just jealous cause we're young and in love
I expected this summer to be great. It fell just short of great, but you know what it wasnt that bad. I spent a lot of time with my friends and they all made me happy. I just wish I could have done more. It's all works fault. I guess that is gonna be how life is for now on though..You know always working and squeezing things in on the weekend.
There were some things I didnt like about this summer though. IT seems like everyone changed. Or maybe I am the only one who changed and everyone has been the same. Who knows really. I saw sides of people that I really dont like..but then again I was surprised by the good in other people that I didnt think was there either.
Maybe the fact that I got a few too many "surprises" this summer is what threw me off. With friends, loves, and family I felt like i was falling through a giant whirlwind.
I know I have made a lot of mistakes. I have hurt a lot of people. There really is no use in trying to justify anything anymore. I did what I did and finally I feel like I can pack this all up and move on. WHat is the point in worrying about the past? IT just gets you caught up on some things and for me I just feel more worse. Dont get me wrong the past should not be forgotten but it doesnt need to be disected either you know. I'm accepting everything that has happened and move on. I'm changing, but it is going to take some time. So i feel like when I actually move in tommorow that will be a start to my new better life. I really hope that I'm right, because it would suck if im wrong...
I feel like today, I'm finally getting closure. Little things like standing under bridges during thunderstorm really do make differences.I love you so much....
sorry If i have been bitchy or moody this summer. I have just had a lot on my mind and i tend to take out my problems on people that i dont mean to.
So anyway I'm really gonna miss my friends. Saying goodbye to Kait was really something hard for me to do. It made me upset, I realized that at this momment goodbyes are far too often..It will be like this forever unless you choose to make that effort and keeping up with everyone. I dont want to lose any of the people that I worked so hard on gettting....
I wont leave u if you wont leave me...I know a lot of my friends are going to UNH but to the close ones that arent Kait, Sarah, Heather, Ashley, and ALanna..I will miss you guys soo much because each of you make me a little bit stronger. i love all of you and I especially love the new edition to my family Colin S.Creevey...awe what a cutie
i think this is all gonna hit me a little bit later...but what i have to say for now is that I am so lucky that I have found friends that care as much as you guys do...and thanks for making my summer the best that it can be under certain circumstances... I love you all
in closing I'll addd a great lovely song
yours truely SMEGMA BAMF
Passed out on the overpass
Sunday best and broken glass
Broken down from the bikes and bars
Suspended like spirits over speeding cars
You and me were kings over the parkway tonight
And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
Singing "everybody wake up(wake up)it's time to get down"
(everybody, everybody wake up its time to get down)
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)
The hell out of this town
Find some conversation
The low fule lights been on for days
It doesn't mean anyhting
I've got another 500 nother 500 miles
before we shut this engine down,
we shut it down
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
Eighteen forever
(your stomachs filled up but you're starved for conversation)
So we can stay like this forever
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
And we'll never miss a party
(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)
cause we keep them going constantly
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
And we'll never have to listen
(your stomachs filled up but you're starved for conversation)
to anyone about anything cause it's all been done
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
and it's all been said
(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
Just jealous cause we're young and in love