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•frenchie (aka oriane) is mad chill. granted, i wouldn't complain if she smoked or drank a bit more, but i'm really happy i got her instead of some bitchy, conceited annoying ass french slut like so many of them are. oriane is really innocent and sweet (and really hot) and i'm going to miss her when she leaves in a week.
•living with someone else not in my family makes me realize what massive OCD i have. the idea of altering my schedule in the slightest makes me want to die. it's been rough.
•sometimes when cuddles is just chillaxing on his personal little mat he just topples right over and can't get up. i've had nightmares about having to put him to sleep ever since i was about 8. i don't know which would be worse, finding him passed away one day, hearing the news from my mom, or taking him to the vet with the intention of never seeing him again alive. even though it might be better for him to end his suffering, the idea of intentionally ending his (or anyone's) life is disgusting and i wouldn't be able to live with myself.
•87 degrees tomorrow??? YEEEAH!!!!! maeve, lauren, oriane, and me are hitting up the beach at rockport tomorrow. i'm insanely pumped.
•in two days i lost $1,000 dollars. well not lost, but...don't have any more. half of it went to a good cause, i.e. cityterm (to which i owe another thousand after that).
•the weekend has been very chill. i was worried about oriane having fun without me having to completely readjust my schedule and typical weekend activity, but i managed to find a medium between our two ideas of fun. i learned two things while under the influence: 1), i NEED to live in california. ask rob. he was there when i had this crazy ass calling. it was intense. and 2), even though drinking can be fun once in a while, i don't like being drunk in big groups, or even if i'm just high or sober, i don't like being around drunk people. or at least not very often. and of course it depends who. but just passing a piece or a blunt or a joint while listening to chill music and tripping out and shit is just SO much more my scene than alcohol.
•i am a really big bitch 99% of the time and if somebody, even a teacher or an "elder," pisses me off i will let them know and stand up for what i believe in blah blah blah and all that good shit, but then sometimes i'm just like 'PLEASE GOD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME! NO I INSIST! NO REALLY, PLEASE GO AHEAD!!'. even when i know shit aint right, i don't mind being used and doing things i don't want to do or know i shouldn't do. maybe that's just me being stupid. i'm pretty fucking stupid a lot of the time. or maybe i'm just so self indulgent that even when i know something is VERY VERY bad and should NOT happen, if it's fun for like 2 minutes, why the hell not?
•i love eric gregory.
•6 days till diana's birthday!
•living with someone else not in my family makes me realize what massive OCD i have. the idea of altering my schedule in the slightest makes me want to die. it's been rough.
•sometimes when cuddles is just chillaxing on his personal little mat he just topples right over and can't get up. i've had nightmares about having to put him to sleep ever since i was about 8. i don't know which would be worse, finding him passed away one day, hearing the news from my mom, or taking him to the vet with the intention of never seeing him again alive. even though it might be better for him to end his suffering, the idea of intentionally ending his (or anyone's) life is disgusting and i wouldn't be able to live with myself.
•87 degrees tomorrow??? YEEEAH!!!!! maeve, lauren, oriane, and me are hitting up the beach at rockport tomorrow. i'm insanely pumped.
•in two days i lost $1,000 dollars. well not lost, but...don't have any more. half of it went to a good cause, i.e. cityterm (to which i owe another thousand after that).
•the weekend has been very chill. i was worried about oriane having fun without me having to completely readjust my schedule and typical weekend activity, but i managed to find a medium between our two ideas of fun. i learned two things while under the influence: 1), i NEED to live in california. ask rob. he was there when i had this crazy ass calling. it was intense. and 2), even though drinking can be fun once in a while, i don't like being drunk in big groups, or even if i'm just high or sober, i don't like being around drunk people. or at least not very often. and of course it depends who. but just passing a piece or a blunt or a joint while listening to chill music and tripping out and shit is just SO much more my scene than alcohol.
•i am a really big bitch 99% of the time and if somebody, even a teacher or an "elder," pisses me off i will let them know and stand up for what i believe in blah blah blah and all that good shit, but then sometimes i'm just like 'PLEASE GOD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME! NO I INSIST! NO REALLY, PLEASE GO AHEAD!!'. even when i know shit aint right, i don't mind being used and doing things i don't want to do or know i shouldn't do. maybe that's just me being stupid. i'm pretty fucking stupid a lot of the time. or maybe i'm just so self indulgent that even when i know something is VERY VERY bad and should NOT happen, if it's fun for like 2 minutes, why the hell not?
•i love eric gregory.
•6 days till diana's birthday!