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i have changed my ways.
this change was further solidified when two techies who were fucked up on a few things fucked up the lights during the performance and made several of the actors look like idiots. having fun is one thing, but not at the expense of other people. even though i wasn't onstage when they fucked up, it's the most disrespectful and stupid thing imaginable. i lost so much respect for both of them tonight. and i don't ever want to be associated with people like that again, because even though we have a few things in common, deep down i'm really nothing like them. and i hope one day they'll change their ways, too.
the first performance of the play was today, and it went excellently. although there were a few mishaps, i'm happy with my performance. as lindberg said, it is a privilige to be able to communicate ideas with an audience. we, as actors, are priviliged to be up there sharing the human experience with them. acting is so much more than just a fulfillment of the sports requirement to me. and this play, the skin of our teeth, in particular. it's taught me so much about myself and human nature as a whole. lindberg is a brilliant, brilliant man. there's something about being up onstage in front of hundreds of people that gives me the biggest rush. it's better than any drug could ever be, because it's real, and it's all coming from inside you. i can't even describe the feeling i get onstage. the play has gotten me through so much...when bush was elected i could think about nothing else for days, but rehearsal always took my mind off it, and everything else, and i get so intensely focused on the present moment. acting is one of the few things i am wholeheartedly passionate about. and it's something i know i'm going to do for the rest of my life. because when you feel this strongly about something, even if it's close to impossible to make a living doing it, you can't ignore it.
this change was further solidified when two techies who were fucked up on a few things fucked up the lights during the performance and made several of the actors look like idiots. having fun is one thing, but not at the expense of other people. even though i wasn't onstage when they fucked up, it's the most disrespectful and stupid thing imaginable. i lost so much respect for both of them tonight. and i don't ever want to be associated with people like that again, because even though we have a few things in common, deep down i'm really nothing like them. and i hope one day they'll change their ways, too.
the first performance of the play was today, and it went excellently. although there were a few mishaps, i'm happy with my performance. as lindberg said, it is a privilige to be able to communicate ideas with an audience. we, as actors, are priviliged to be up there sharing the human experience with them. acting is so much more than just a fulfillment of the sports requirement to me. and this play, the skin of our teeth, in particular. it's taught me so much about myself and human nature as a whole. lindberg is a brilliant, brilliant man. there's something about being up onstage in front of hundreds of people that gives me the biggest rush. it's better than any drug could ever be, because it's real, and it's all coming from inside you. i can't even describe the feeling i get onstage. the play has gotten me through so much...when bush was elected i could think about nothing else for days, but rehearsal always took my mind off it, and everything else, and i get so intensely focused on the present moment. acting is one of the few things i am wholeheartedly passionate about. and it's something i know i'm going to do for the rest of my life. because when you feel this strongly about something, even if it's close to impossible to make a living doing it, you can't ignore it.