"...like memories we haven't made up right..."

[megghank]

i remember the first time i met you in your best friends car, and when we discuss this memory you swear you are up front but really i was squeezed in the back seat one person over from you. and when i met you i told myself that i was going to make you fall in love with me. i remember our first kiss it was 6 in the morning after staying up all night watching the Big Lebowski and laughing. your slight beard scratched my face but i didn't mind it. i remeber when i first called you and made you guess which megan it was, a game that i was fond of playing at first. and you didn't get it right until the very last option which surprised me and stund a little. i remember the time we went ice skating and you were really good because you were a hockey player and i was horrible but you came up behind me and put those arms around me and laughed with me. and all of a sudden it didn't matter because you dragged me on with you. i remember the first night we slept together but couldn't fall asleep until 7 am and the snow fell silently outside. i was cold and you hogged the blankets. but i got to wake up next to you in sweet confusion. i remember the time my burdened friend came up and told me all her troubles and suddenly you didn't seem so flawed you seemed wonderfully simple. all the times i tried to end it with you i couldn't. everything else to me seems a blur because i have blocked it out. my friends told me that i would date you and i laughed at them because come on, that went against the very nature of our relationship. but deep down that was all i wanted from you. and when i saw you across the room i wanted to be closer to you and when you got up to leave i wanted you to stay. you didn't want me to regret it and how could i. i remember when you told me that you missed me and i never believed you. i remember the last night we spent together and i didn't know it was. if i did i would've stayed so much longer. i wish i had stayed longer because now i don't know if i will ever feel your arms around me again. if only i didn't know what it felt like to have you i wouldn't know what it was like to loose you.

i remember the night i gave you a second change

-m.