Creative Angst
I'm going through another bout of creative angst. My friend Kristi and I were talking about this today, and I felt like I would continue the venting on my blog, lucky you ;) Don't get me wrong, I love my job, but everything I'm doing is left-brain work. Typing, correcting proposals, making corrections to already-drafted details. I'm having a tough time feeling like I'm designing...well.. anything. Learning these things is ESSENTIAL to me becoming an architect, I just wish it involved more creativity (for lack of a better word). My writing DOES help this a lot, helps me to expend that creative energy, but I haven't been as consistent with it as I'd like. I'd like to make myself do more sketching before my hand becomes non-existant. I'd also REALLY like to keep up with some building design. I've been tossing around the idea of designing my 'ideal' barn, or 'ideal' house for a little while - just to give me something to do to exercise those design muscles. I've talked before about keeping a creative journal, but haven't followed up on that, even though I know that would be a good idea for me. Maybe this weekend.
Riding has been going alright. I still feel like a total newb on Lacey. I know everyone who tries to learn to ride an upper level horse probably has the same learning curve, but it's exhilerating and frustrating all at the same time. I'm trying to figure out my leg - how to use it, when to use it, what to do when I feel like I'm using it and nothing is happening. I think I'm actually using too MUCH leg, and then when I go to use it it's ineffective. So many things to think about! Sheesh! That and learning how to multitask with my body is interesting. *sigh* I will post a picture for posterity. One really exciting thing? I rode my first ever non-jumping flying change! Woohoo! It took me three tries, and I still feel a little like "hm, well, hope THIS works", but I did it! Plus we SORT of did some shoulder in and half pass. Sort-of being the operative word there. But I guess you never learn if you don't suck, right? Trisha just makes it look so easy. *sigh* I guess it'd be bad if one's trainer was a bad rider!
The good:
The bad:
So. I'm still working on using less inside rein. This one's hard for me, I don't even know I'm doing it sometimes. Still working on turning my toes forward. This one I can practice while I'm riding Mac in the field. I actually think I can help this one, it's just going to take getting it into muscle memory. Like I said before, the leg issue.
Trisha is taking Lacey to a show on the 6th! I'm excited to see them compete! She looks so good on our girl! They'll be showing 3rd level, and I had the option of showing but 'politely declined'. I just don't think I'd feel prepared, or confident about it. This time I'll go as cheerleader, and I'll totally do some schooling shows this fall/winter. When I've ridden her more than 4 times =) Other than me sucking, Lacey is awesome. She is kind and patient, and uncomplicated. If I ask correctly, she does it. Such a good match for me! Trisha looks like she's really enjoying riding Lacey, and I'm so glad she gets to show at least 3rd level this year!
In randomness: I've quit drinking tea in the mornings, and you know what? I've quit having my random bouts of sleepy-ness. (For the most part. Aside from boring meetings, at least). I've also tried to cut down on my sugar in the mornings. This is also helping.
Also, I thought about a sweet idea for a T-shirt design. I've been contemplating (with all of the extra money that I have) having them printed and then selling them at some of the schooling shows I go to. I'd love to someday be involved in riding clothing design. Just as soon as I find another 16 hours in the day. Right. In another life, I suppose.
My day has been busy, I really want to be outside right now, and then go inside and watch some LOST with Kent. That sounds just about perfect!
Riding has been going alright. I still feel like a total newb on Lacey. I know everyone who tries to learn to ride an upper level horse probably has the same learning curve, but it's exhilerating and frustrating all at the same time. I'm trying to figure out my leg - how to use it, when to use it, what to do when I feel like I'm using it and nothing is happening. I think I'm actually using too MUCH leg, and then when I go to use it it's ineffective. So many things to think about! Sheesh! That and learning how to multitask with my body is interesting. *sigh* I will post a picture for posterity. One really exciting thing? I rode my first ever non-jumping flying change! Woohoo! It took me three tries, and I still feel a little like "hm, well, hope THIS works", but I did it! Plus we SORT of did some shoulder in and half pass. Sort-of being the operative word there. But I guess you never learn if you don't suck, right? Trisha just makes it look so easy. *sigh* I guess it'd be bad if one's trainer was a bad rider!
The good:
The bad:
So. I'm still working on using less inside rein. This one's hard for me, I don't even know I'm doing it sometimes. Still working on turning my toes forward. This one I can practice while I'm riding Mac in the field. I actually think I can help this one, it's just going to take getting it into muscle memory. Like I said before, the leg issue.
Trisha is taking Lacey to a show on the 6th! I'm excited to see them compete! She looks so good on our girl! They'll be showing 3rd level, and I had the option of showing but 'politely declined'. I just don't think I'd feel prepared, or confident about it. This time I'll go as cheerleader, and I'll totally do some schooling shows this fall/winter. When I've ridden her more than 4 times =) Other than me sucking, Lacey is awesome. She is kind and patient, and uncomplicated. If I ask correctly, she does it. Such a good match for me! Trisha looks like she's really enjoying riding Lacey, and I'm so glad she gets to show at least 3rd level this year!
In randomness: I've quit drinking tea in the mornings, and you know what? I've quit having my random bouts of sleepy-ness. (For the most part. Aside from boring meetings, at least). I've also tried to cut down on my sugar in the mornings. This is also helping.
Also, I thought about a sweet idea for a T-shirt design. I've been contemplating (with all of the extra money that I have) having them printed and then selling them at some of the schooling shows I go to. I'd love to someday be involved in riding clothing design. Just as soon as I find another 16 hours in the day. Right. In another life, I suppose.
My day has been busy, I really want to be outside right now, and then go inside and watch some LOST with Kent. That sounds just about perfect!