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[megaroo517]

i never knew that life could be like this

i never knew the strength it takes to hold on

i never knew that rape destroyed a woman's world

i never knew that i would be raped

i never knew it would be by someone i knew

i never knew i would feel this responsible

i never knew how many people wouldn't believe me

i never knew i would drink enough to black out

i never knew i would i wouldn't say no

i never knew i wouldn't fight back

i never knew people would actually believe him

i never knew how much that would murder me inside

i never knew i would blame myself this much internally

i never knew i would die from something i can't remember all of

i never knew it would be so imperative for me to remember

i never knew i would pray for a breakdown

i never knew i would be harrassed for telling the truth

i never knew i would regret taking action as much as i do

i never knew by doing something right i would be treated as the one who did wrong

i never knew i would doubt my ability to hold on

i never knew that it would be like this

i never knew that i would want to stop

i never knew

i just never knew

i wish i didn't know

i wish he had killed me instead