what do you do when you've gotten real down

[megankaytlin]

i haven't written in awhile so i figured i should, ? i've been having a bad week, writing in this thing helps especially when i feel like i don't really have anyone to talk to. or like, i do, but people have their own problems and i think it can be boring and draining to unload on someone, especially when it's not all major problems or something

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[stroke_the_rat]

i seriously feel like we are life twins...remind me again why don't we hang out because seriously i think we would just talk about the same shit we are feeling and be ok because we are both going through it.

"i've always had this problem where i 'wait' to let myself enjoy life, or put in the effort/hard work of being the person i've 'always wanted to be' or i can't enjoy my life until i'm there" this is 100% me right now. i got into a car accident in august, not even a bad one, but for some reason i let it fuck me right up...everything went to shit, i stopped eating right, working out, bailing on my friends, being pissy and slacking on school/life. i've finally trying to pick the pieces up and it's hard as hell. i've put on weight and feeling shitty about myself/nothing fitting good i've just been avoiding going out and having fun until i """get into shape""" i don't get why i can't be happy in the process. IT SUCKS

i think it's ok to feel ~off~ it happens a lot and when you try to explain it to someone, it feels sort of petty because there is nothing 'wrong' per se, but just the culmination of a lot of little crappy things can weigh you down.

that is cool you are doing zumba!! i just started again, my mom is an instructor so she is always pressuring me to go. where do you zumba at? let's do a class together!! i'm serious, i need motivation and an accountability buddy :o)

hope things pick up for ya...xoxo

[megankaytlin]

girl! we really are life twins. i always love getting your comments and hearing from you on here bc it totally helps to know i'm not going through all this bs alone. and i just like hearing from you! :) i'm sorry to hear you're feelin' it too though, i totally know how it feels and it sucks and it's stupid! we are too hard on ourselves!

and yes i looove zumba! i was happy bc after this post i totally though i was going to continue slipping but i forced myself to go that night and i'm feeling a lot better and like my happiness slowly came back or something. (it will undoubtedly slump again soon enough but i feel good for now heh) that is so cool your mom is an instructor! that's crazy! i just got my mom to finally start coming bc our schedule's are so different it never worked in the past. where does she teach? i go to danzar it's mid-town and it's just awesome the teachers are great. i would love (!) to do a class with you! then we would finally get some hang time in too! i'm going to text you tmrw bc i feel like we both don't check lj very often but yah thanks for the kind words girl i appreciate it a lot, i always do :D