what do you do when you've gotten real down

Nov 06, 2014 15:49

i haven't written in awhile so i figured i should, ? i've been having a bad week, writing in this thing helps especially when i feel like i don't really have anyone to talk to. or like, i do, but people have their own problems and i think it can be boring and draining to unload on someone, especially when it's not all major problems or something that can be easily pinpointed. i just feel down. usually when i feel this sadness for no reason it passes within a few days. very nostalgic and critical. it probably has something to do with that shitty ass time change. i haven't gone to zumba this week at all, and this is my first week since starting it that i've gone this long without. i'm hoping i go tonight but idk,........

school is okay, i mean i like it but it's also zapping a lot of my energy and i have such a problem with procrastination it's like the whole time i'm anticipating doing an assignment i'm being tortured with the looming idea or thought of having to get down to business. i've been eating like shit, same old shit. i've always had this problem where i 'wait' to let myself enjoy life, or put in the effort/hard work of being the person i've 'always wanted to be' or i can't enjoy my life until i'm there................................ it's so weird. i'm constantly torn with feeling like i love people and i hate people. i have an A in theory and a solid 75% in spanish and if i'm going to minor in it i need to step it up. i need to step it up everywhere. food slump workout slump dirty house slump dirty car slump financial slump work slump school slump life slump. it'll pass
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