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haven't written in 100 years it feels like and i figured i ought to. i love this thing. i've had it for so many years and it's nice to look back at the ebbs and flows. i moved again, about 2 blocks up from downtown and it's sweet. i can walk 5 minutes to the beach or 5 minutes in the other direction for real pretty views. the place is a nice size, just big enough yet not too big and real cozy and comfy and clean. marty and i moved in together, we were together for a year before we decided and i like it so much. the first few weeks were weird and i felt cagey but i think that's just a normal adapting kind of period, we moved in together in september. he is a sweet heart. it's to be with someone who is genuinely good, like for real not a malicious bone in his body and i know he's got my back. before with past idiots i feel like i would be constantly holding my breath, anticipating the next fuckup, always.
i've been cooking a lot more, trying to as much as possible anyway, using fresh ingredients. trying to not eat breads and wheats and etc whenever i can hack it. i've been hiking a lot and trying to treat my body well. i applied for schools ! i never have to take a math class again ! exciting. feels like it's never going to happen but i guess it finally is getting there. i'm just trying to keep working towards my goals, i guess. trying to say yes more, and not overthink things and just do them. for a long time i would not do things because how i'd think other people would perceive my actions, strangers mainly,(lol how self absorbed) but then by not doing certain things i've kind of been realizing the only one that is hurting, is me... like i went to zumba last night by myself, i had been holding back on going for awhile because everytime i'd plan to go my friend would bail and i was afraid of going by myself but last night i finally decided to go and it was so fun! i hope i go back again because it really was great. i'm trying to think what else is new but i guess my life is just not that interesting, ha
i've been cooking a lot more, trying to as much as possible anyway, using fresh ingredients. trying to not eat breads and wheats and etc whenever i can hack it. i've been hiking a lot and trying to treat my body well. i applied for schools ! i never have to take a math class again ! exciting. feels like it's never going to happen but i guess it finally is getting there. i'm just trying to keep working towards my goals, i guess. trying to say yes more, and not overthink things and just do them. for a long time i would not do things because how i'd think other people would perceive my actions, strangers mainly,(lol how self absorbed) but then by not doing certain things i've kind of been realizing the only one that is hurting, is me... like i went to zumba last night by myself, i had been holding back on going for awhile because everytime i'd plan to go my friend would bail and i was afraid of going by myself but last night i finally decided to go and it was so fun! i hope i go back again because it really was great. i'm trying to think what else is new but i guess my life is just not that interesting, ha