UP, Baguio, and why I want to leave for now
Yes, I want to go on leave for a sem but of course I won't do that! I only have one sem to go (hopefully) and I feel like taking a huge break from all of the brouhaha UP has to offer. Yep, I love my UP and I love my intellectual stimulation but I want to be bobo for a sem.
Its only this sem break that I actually had time for myself after finding my heart. You probably read/heard this over 9000 times: I feel like a tin man who found his heart in the early parts of the previous semester. So what happned this sem break is I tried (and successfully) humanized myself by keeping all the stress away. Although I was expecting a thesis revision to balance things out (1 thesis revision for the sem break won't hurt. At sir, wala pa yung e-mail niyo D:), I had all the time in the world to focus on myself and make me and a special someone happy.
Things are going smoothly with my sem break plans. I bought new clothes, had my hair done, and generally improved myself and be guwapo while am at it. And to top things off, I just found someone who appreciates me unconditionally in this world filled with conditions. Am sick of the world behind me and I just want to leave it right in the left side of my book.
UP is full of unwanted drama not to mention school work particularly group projects pfffft. Another note about UP is the inter org-frat-soro drama which really reaks and is basically made up of small stuff gone big. The rowdiness of the UP crowd also takes a toll on me, kahit gragraduate na ako hindi ko pa rin 100% gusto yung general crowd although I learned a lot from them. Of course, I know am infamous to some extent up there inside and outside the school. I just want to leave it all there, but whatever happened up there isn't supposed to rot naman.
So the thing is, its only me who tells myself that I have a generally unacceptable attitude. The crowd up there thinks like that so I thought its supposed to be that way. I am jerky, mean, egotistic, person who shouts putang ina out of the blue. And thats it, nobody up there actually knows anything good about me. But thats all water under the bridge.
Oo nga pala, I have an org to fix pa pala. Another thing that I want to avoid per se. But I feel compelled. I went inside the org so I can catch up on some vids I missed. It was fine at that point, but true to what people believe, it is an organization that sucks. Yes you read it right, straight from the chairperson of the org. It sucks. That's why I am compelled to fix the damn thing. After all Baguio (not just UP) really needs Anime_HQ. Its the only organization of that kind after all. Lots of other schools were prohibited to create an organization about hobbies, UP lang ang pinayagan. And I know it will all branch from that if a good otaku community in Baguio would emerge. If not, then it will take a long time before another one comes out.
Moving on with the org, I know we have to fix the org and it should all start from ourselves. We should ditch the GMA - ABS-CBN anime fan attitude and start branching out from the lesser known crannies of the org principles. After all, I want to change the org into something people will take seriously. After all animu is serious business. So even if I can't change the image of the org in 1 year (or 1 sem, yes I know its partly my fault why we dont have activities for the 1st sem and I learned my lesson :p), at least I should start the change. And how do I do it? Change constitution, change the principles, and lots of activities that matter of course. Expose and appreciate, thats what we need to do.
As for the Baguio life. It is very lonely living up there. No its not the emo kind of lonely bleargh (It all ended already :) ), but living away from my family is still something I can't fully stomach. I miss everyone and everything Paranaque has to offer. Our town is slowly being the town that I really want to stay for a long time.
Am getting sick and tired of Baguio and UP. I wish I could just get my diploma and leave Baguio for good.
I neglected myself too much already.
In before grammar errors and mispelled words