More Not So Random Thoughts
This is my second blog that I posted on Myspace. At first this was a comment on
bloodscotsman myspace blog. But since he didn't want to post it I decided to make it into a blog entry.
My URL:
http://www.myspace.com/randomthoughtsofnothing
My Blog URL:
http://blog.myspace.com/randomthoughtsofnothing
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"When you find yourself lonely on probably many a day to come, I will not pity you. For this is how you wanted it to be"
If you really think that being alone bothers me then you didn't know me at all. I didn't have any friends until my freshman year of high school. So I went for 15 years without a friend to talk to or even hang out with. It wasn't because I didn't try to make friends. I really did try. After a while of being ignored I just stopped. Remember that quiet kid in class that sat in the back that everyone ignored? Yeah that was me. For 15 years...... Will I end up alone? Maybe... But it won't bother me so much. You, Trimm, however don't like to be alone. In fact wasn't that one of the reasons why you hooked up with Jennifer? Because you were lonely? Didn't I tell you several times well before you met Jenny to not get involved with anyone while your in the military? Trying to maintain a relationship is one of the hardest things to do while your in the military. Plus I also knew how much you were still in love with Tiffany. I was trying to help you. But you didn't listen. You went out with her anyway. And what happened? You broke up with her. Why? Could it have something to do with what I mentioned earlier? Maybe. But hey, what do I know. I'm just some crazy guy who'll just end up being alone, right? You have no idea how much I hate myself for keeping things from Jennifer just to protect you. Like the times you would tell me that as much as you liked Jennifer, you couldn't imagine being with anyone other than Tiffany. Or the time You, me and Tiffany hung out and you kissed her as I waited in the car for you. You know how important loyalty is to me in a relationship. I thought you were different than all of those other guys that are in the military. I guess I was wrong. I kept telling you to end things before it got too serious and before you hurt her to badly. But you didn't. You kept comming up with excuses. And if it wasn't for me calling you while you were talking to her and my cell phone losing signal, who knows when you would have ended things. Do you have any idea how much it broke my heart when she called me after you broke up with her? I felt like shit because I knew it was comming and I didn't warn her. I absolutely hate people who cheat on their girlfriend/boyfriend or their wife/husband. I hate myself for looking away. I expect to make some people angry with this blog entry. I know that Jennifer hates people who lie to her and she'll more than likely be mad at me with what she reads in this blog. Since a lot of people think i'm gonna end up alone then I wouldn't want to dissapoint them.