Not So Random Thoughts...
Yes i'm still alive. Everything below the line i posted on my Myspace Blog page at http://www.myspace.com/randomthoughtsofnothing
For some reason I decided to put it here to.
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Alot of people keep telling me that I shouldn't waste my time staying mad or hold a grudge on someone. They tell me that no one is worth it.
Maybe they're right. Am I wrong for holding this grudge, for staying mad? Maybe. Am I gonna stay mad, Oh hell yeah I am. I rarely ever forgive and I never forget whenever someone really pisses me off like that. Stefan, no fuck that from now on its Trimm, you want to turn your back on me and pretty much spit in my face and tell me to fuck off, ok fine. Just know this. Don't you ever expect me to watch your back again. If we ever hang out together again and a group of guys want to kick your ass for something you did then your on your own. You got yourself into that mess then you get yourself out of it. Looking back on that night, I really wish we had let those guys beat your ass. Maybe they would have knocked some sense into you. Also, don't you ever ask me for advice or my opinion ever again.
All your gonna get in return is me telling you to fuck off. I'm fucking sick of it. Before all of this shit, I told you numerous times to listen to what I was telling you, I may not have been always right but I at least had your best interest in mind. I tried to help you but if your not gonna listen to me then fuck it, i'm not gonna waste my breath anymore.
You still want to be friends, fine but I won't forgive you.
You want things to be like they were before, fine but I won't forget what happened.
I can pretend like everything is ok. The next time you call, and I strongly emphisize you be the one who does the calling cause i'm not gonna waste my time calling someone who doesn't want to listen, i'll pretend like everything is ok and things are like they were before. Hell, i'll even pretend to sound happy. If you want to visit New York again and want to stay at my place, thats fine. I'll pretend to be happy like that night never happened. I might even act a little crazy just like old times. You may or may not have noticed but after that night I hardly acted like my usual self back on Camp Lejuene when you guys where still here.
Before I end this blog entry, I want to share one thing with everyone. Throughout my whole life i've heard all kinds of different sayings and quotes. 9 years ago I read a quote that i've never forgotten.
"Fate determins who comes into our lives. Our actions and our attitudes determin who stay in our lives".
I hope that kiss was worth it Trimm...
For those of you who are wondering why I included the lyrics to this song well i'm not really to sure why. I've just been playing this one song over and over and over so much on my laptop and in my head that i wanted to share it with all of you.
Eminem ft. Obie Trice and DMX - Go To Sleep
[Eminem]
I ain't gonna eat, I ain't gonna sleep
Ain't gonna breathe, til I see, what I wanna see
And what I wanna see, is you go to sleep, in the dirt
Permanently, you just being hurt, this ain't gonna work
For me, it just wouldn't be, sufficient enough
Cuz we, are just gonna be, enemies
As long as we breathe, I don't ever see, either of us
Coming to terms, where we can agree
There ain't gonna be, no reasoning, speakin wit me
You speak on my seed, then me, no speak-a ingles
So we gonna beef, and keep on beefin, unless
You're gonna agree, to meet with me in the flesh
And settle this face to face, and you're gonna see
A demon unleashed in me, that you've never seen
And you're gonna see, this gangster beat on himself
I see you D-12, and thanks, but me need no help
Me do this one all by my lonely, I don't need fifteen of my homies
When I see you, I'm seeing you, me and you only
We never met, but best believe you gon know me
When I'm this close, to see you exposed as phony
Come on, bitch, show me, pick me up, throw me
Lift me up, hold me, just like you told me
You was gonna do, that's what I thought, you're pitiful
I'm rid of you, all of you, Ja, you'll get it too!
[Chorus]
Now go to sleep bitch!
Die, motherfucker, die! Ugh, time's up, bitch, close ya eyes
Go to sleep, bitch! (what?)
Why are you still alive? How many times I gotta say, close ya eyes?
And go to sleep bitch! (what?)
Die motherfucker die, bye, bye, motherfucker, bye, bye!
Go to sleep bitch! (what?)
Why are you still alive? Why, die motherfucker, ah, ah, ah...
...Go to sleep bitch!
[Obie Trice]
We got you niggaz, nervous
On purpose, to hurt your focus, you'se not MC's, you'se worthless
You'se not them G's, you'se a circus, you'se no appeal, please
You'se curtains, you use words, cool heard, slurred in two thousand third
You'se purpin, you'se no threat, who's ya servin?
When lyrically oughta bury you beneath the dirt when
You fuck with a label overseeing the Earth
Shady muthafucka, O. Trice's birth
And as I mold, I become a curse
So we can put down the verse, take it to the turf
Cock and squeeze, and he who reach the hearse is he who
Depicts fiction in his verse
And as I breathe, and you be deceased
The world believe you deceived just to speak
You'se not the streets, you'se the desk
Use not your chest nigga, use a vest
Before two's choose ya rest, you chose death
Six feet deep, nigga, that's the debt
[Chorus]
[DMX]
Hey dog, I'ma walk like a beast, talk like the streets
I'ma stay blazin New York wit the heat
Stalk on the beat, walk wit my feet
Understand my pain, the rain ain't sleet
Peep how I'm moving, peep where I'm going
Shit don't seep, then sleep not knowin
But I'ma keep growing, getting larger than life
Easy-going with the same one that started the fight
He be knowing how dog get, when dog gon bite
Tried to show him the dog shit, it's dog for life
Grand champ, and my Blood Line is tight
Cuz it's all good, it's all right
Niggas tried to holla, but couldn't holla back
Now they gots to swallow, everything in the sac
Blood Line, and, we can go track for track
Damn dog, why'd you have to do them niggas like that?
[Chorus]
[Eminem]
All you motherfuckers, take that!
Here, take this too, bitch! Uh, Uh, Uh, Uh, Waaaaaahoo
We're killing all you motherfuckers dead, all of you
Fake ass gangsters! No more press! No more press!
Rot, motherfuckers, rot! Decay, in the dirt, bitch, in the motherfucking dirt!
Die nameless, bitch, die nameless! No more fame!
Ahhhhhhhhhh! Hahahaha
Yo X, come on man, Obie, let's go, haha
For some reason I decided to put it here to.
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Alot of people keep telling me that I shouldn't waste my time staying mad or hold a grudge on someone. They tell me that no one is worth it.
Maybe they're right. Am I wrong for holding this grudge, for staying mad? Maybe. Am I gonna stay mad, Oh hell yeah I am. I rarely ever forgive and I never forget whenever someone really pisses me off like that. Stefan, no fuck that from now on its Trimm, you want to turn your back on me and pretty much spit in my face and tell me to fuck off, ok fine. Just know this. Don't you ever expect me to watch your back again. If we ever hang out together again and a group of guys want to kick your ass for something you did then your on your own. You got yourself into that mess then you get yourself out of it. Looking back on that night, I really wish we had let those guys beat your ass. Maybe they would have knocked some sense into you. Also, don't you ever ask me for advice or my opinion ever again.
All your gonna get in return is me telling you to fuck off. I'm fucking sick of it. Before all of this shit, I told you numerous times to listen to what I was telling you, I may not have been always right but I at least had your best interest in mind. I tried to help you but if your not gonna listen to me then fuck it, i'm not gonna waste my breath anymore.
You still want to be friends, fine but I won't forgive you.
You want things to be like they were before, fine but I won't forget what happened.
I can pretend like everything is ok. The next time you call, and I strongly emphisize you be the one who does the calling cause i'm not gonna waste my time calling someone who doesn't want to listen, i'll pretend like everything is ok and things are like they were before. Hell, i'll even pretend to sound happy. If you want to visit New York again and want to stay at my place, thats fine. I'll pretend to be happy like that night never happened. I might even act a little crazy just like old times. You may or may not have noticed but after that night I hardly acted like my usual self back on Camp Lejuene when you guys where still here.
Before I end this blog entry, I want to share one thing with everyone. Throughout my whole life i've heard all kinds of different sayings and quotes. 9 years ago I read a quote that i've never forgotten.
"Fate determins who comes into our lives. Our actions and our attitudes determin who stay in our lives".
I hope that kiss was worth it Trimm...
For those of you who are wondering why I included the lyrics to this song well i'm not really to sure why. I've just been playing this one song over and over and over so much on my laptop and in my head that i wanted to share it with all of you.
Eminem ft. Obie Trice and DMX - Go To Sleep
[Eminem]
I ain't gonna eat, I ain't gonna sleep
Ain't gonna breathe, til I see, what I wanna see
And what I wanna see, is you go to sleep, in the dirt
Permanently, you just being hurt, this ain't gonna work
For me, it just wouldn't be, sufficient enough
Cuz we, are just gonna be, enemies
As long as we breathe, I don't ever see, either of us
Coming to terms, where we can agree
There ain't gonna be, no reasoning, speakin wit me
You speak on my seed, then me, no speak-a ingles
So we gonna beef, and keep on beefin, unless
You're gonna agree, to meet with me in the flesh
And settle this face to face, and you're gonna see
A demon unleashed in me, that you've never seen
And you're gonna see, this gangster beat on himself
I see you D-12, and thanks, but me need no help
Me do this one all by my lonely, I don't need fifteen of my homies
When I see you, I'm seeing you, me and you only
We never met, but best believe you gon know me
When I'm this close, to see you exposed as phony
Come on, bitch, show me, pick me up, throw me
Lift me up, hold me, just like you told me
You was gonna do, that's what I thought, you're pitiful
I'm rid of you, all of you, Ja, you'll get it too!
[Chorus]
Now go to sleep bitch!
Die, motherfucker, die! Ugh, time's up, bitch, close ya eyes
Go to sleep, bitch! (what?)
Why are you still alive? How many times I gotta say, close ya eyes?
And go to sleep bitch! (what?)
Die motherfucker die, bye, bye, motherfucker, bye, bye!
Go to sleep bitch! (what?)
Why are you still alive? Why, die motherfucker, ah, ah, ah...
...Go to sleep bitch!
[Obie Trice]
We got you niggaz, nervous
On purpose, to hurt your focus, you'se not MC's, you'se worthless
You'se not them G's, you'se a circus, you'se no appeal, please
You'se curtains, you use words, cool heard, slurred in two thousand third
You'se purpin, you'se no threat, who's ya servin?
When lyrically oughta bury you beneath the dirt when
You fuck with a label overseeing the Earth
Shady muthafucka, O. Trice's birth
And as I mold, I become a curse
So we can put down the verse, take it to the turf
Cock and squeeze, and he who reach the hearse is he who
Depicts fiction in his verse
And as I breathe, and you be deceased
The world believe you deceived just to speak
You'se not the streets, you'se the desk
Use not your chest nigga, use a vest
Before two's choose ya rest, you chose death
Six feet deep, nigga, that's the debt
[Chorus]
[DMX]
Hey dog, I'ma walk like a beast, talk like the streets
I'ma stay blazin New York wit the heat
Stalk on the beat, walk wit my feet
Understand my pain, the rain ain't sleet
Peep how I'm moving, peep where I'm going
Shit don't seep, then sleep not knowin
But I'ma keep growing, getting larger than life
Easy-going with the same one that started the fight
He be knowing how dog get, when dog gon bite
Tried to show him the dog shit, it's dog for life
Grand champ, and my Blood Line is tight
Cuz it's all good, it's all right
Niggas tried to holla, but couldn't holla back
Now they gots to swallow, everything in the sac
Blood Line, and, we can go track for track
Damn dog, why'd you have to do them niggas like that?
[Chorus]
[Eminem]
All you motherfuckers, take that!
Here, take this too, bitch! Uh, Uh, Uh, Uh, Waaaaaahoo
We're killing all you motherfuckers dead, all of you
Fake ass gangsters! No more press! No more press!
Rot, motherfuckers, rot! Decay, in the dirt, bitch, in the motherfucking dirt!
Die nameless, bitch, die nameless! No more fame!
Ahhhhhhhhhh! Hahahaha
Yo X, come on man, Obie, let's go, haha